Well friends, I hate to say but I replapsed once today. Still, trying not to beat myself up, as six weeks is I believe the longest streak I've made since I first started falling into this M habit years ago. While I am treating this as a fall, and resetting my clock (new goal of 90 in July), I cannot help but feel celebratory at reaching this milestone. At 42 days, the regular urges had long subsided, but today is proof that urges can arise at any time. We cannot let our guard down. Still, I have been feeling the benefits of having reached 42 days, especially in my social life! So I have tasted success and it tastes good. Here's to 90 and beyond!
Day 77 This porn thing's grip is crazy. I had strong urges for the past few days which ok is fair enough but I haven't PMO'd. I've stopped the behavourial side of things for 77 days - ok this is a start but it's a lifestyle change. The effect on my brain is still strong - seeing women in sexual/pornographic ways e.g. mentally undressing them/lusting after them/checking them out, daydreaming about them in a pornographic way. I guess it's an improvement by focusing on real women rather than pornography but it's still not what I want, which is a life untouched by the perils pornography brings, physical and mental. Porn is so ingrained in our society you have to live in a shell to completely avoid it, which makes this recovery so difficult. At least I am staying strong and abstaining, despite some stresses and strains in other areas of my life - stresses and strains which I would normally look to resolve by PMOing. AND... As much as I love the sun as we hardly get any in this fucking country, it's not helping with the urges...
To my All Fapstronauts Never Worry. Keep Fighting with your inner desires. Keep fighting with the opposing forces that let you down. They can not take you down. Let them know, you are Great! by consistency, fight and courage. Let all know, you can not be demoted.
Now you know you can do it! Good on you for jumping right back on, be strong, seek support on here, be well brother!
Haven't checked in, but relapsed sometime last week and don't remember when, so I'll just go ahead and make this day 1.
Day 2 Yesterday was really a hell, the urges grew stronger than the day before. I pressed the panic button thrice, got some motivational pics and video. It told me that "when a challenge is so hard that you are almost give up, deal with it, it's not the end of the world if you don't give up, you're not done yet until you win". Yesterday i saw many vulgar pics (on purpose and not), still can hold it. Last night i have a vulgar dream which i woke up on the half of the dream, leaving me great impact of fap desire, still fight it with cold shower. So for day 2: BRING IT ON!!
Day 11 (a few hours from day 12) I'm in the so-called flatline phase. I lost my mind-penis connection altogether (I'm used to always being able to erect with thoughts before this) alongside non-existent morning wood and it's quite depressing.