Hi friends! Day 51 for me today and i am truly feeling the ups and downs of this nofap thing. I was in a complete flatline for the first 40 days of my reboot, flaccid shrunken dead dick. Then I started to see some improvements. I noticed my dick was growing back to its normal size. It didnt feel as numb as before and I was starting to get my libido back. I even got morning wood 3-4 times. I was able to have sex on Day 43 and started feeling good about myself since I was recovering. Then this. The flatline has returned over the last 3 days. Dick feels dead again and has kinda shrunk. Absolutely no libido. Obviously, this has made me a bit depressed. I have tried to analyze what I have done differently over the last week that may have caused me to regress and here they are. 1. I had sex twice. Day 43 and 49. The first time I got hard with minimal touch and the sex was good. Second time, I needed help from my girl and the sex sucked for me. 2. I had started doing kegel exercises on Day 35 and for no good reason stopped after Day 43. I noticed major improvements just after a week of these exercises. Not sure if there was a correlation but starting today I am getting back on the kegel wagon. 3. I stopped fantasizing completely on Day 35. The last 3-5 days I have been fantasizing a few times a day and make myself get hard (and as a result, temporarily stopped being depressed about this whole PIED situation). I am not sure if others have had similar experiences where you saw improvement then started going backwards again but I would like to know. I have decided to be very strict about doing my kegels daily and stop fantasizing completely again. Hoping to get back on track again.
Morning wood, normal/high libido, got erect with little to no touch, enjoyed sex and did not go soft while intercourse.
I'll raise my hand admit to a pretty much constant flatline since the beginning. I woke up with morning wood once about ten days in, and have had a semi-erection once or twice in the last week or so, but I feel neither physical nor psychological urges. In my own case however, I accepted this as not only being possible, but was even willing to accept it as the new status quo. I'm not advocating this for anyone else, nor do I personally wish for this to be the status quo, but it was a bridge I felt willing to cross in order to see how I operated without PMO. Between PMO and occasional alcohol binges (four or five heavy drinks in a sitting), I was keeping myself as nice compliant steer. I find without the PMO I'm more concerned about myself, my surroundings, my future and the world in general. I think it also helps to understand that, like much of biology, flatlines are cyclical - they come, but more importantly, they also go. Flatlines happen, there is often more than one, and they can take a long time to cross, but even the Rub' al Khali has an end.
I'm going complete hardmode. No P, no M, no O. Period. So I really can't tell you what it was like after I had sex. That being said, however, I've read that orgasms can set you back. Check out rebootnation.org if you haven't already. Gabe (the guy that started the site) took 9 months. My goal is to only have sex when I get fully aroused by my wife, and to only orgasm inside her. I'm almost at six months, without a lot of progress on the PIED, but I'm strong, and I'm going to keep going. Best of luck to you!