Day 3 Done, After my girlfriend blocking me yesterday i went to see her and she told me to leave shes unblocked m and is still talking to me but she seems to completely hate me as i lied to her i hate myself for it and i really want to be better i hate that the thought of masturbation makes me turn to porn and i regret it afterwards. She told me she will never let herself love me again and i'm just distraught i will continue to try and show her that i love her and that i only have eyes for her but the porn makes her think that i enjoy looking at other women's bodies but i don't i only love hers but i still relapsed and watched, im keeping up with the challenge i wont let myself watch it again i absolutely despise myself
To change. Change for yourself. Do not despise yourself. Forgive yourself. If you love yourself you will take better care of yourself. No fapping is about change. Change for the better. Think only of you for now. Focus.
I know i have to forgive myself but at this moment in time i cant entirely forgive myself i have to show myself i am better. I am changing for myself i despise the person I've shown myself to be and i want to change. Thanks man!
I’ve failed @2525 :/ gonna leave this thread for a bit and recuperate, wish me well brother, peace love and positivity to you and everyone