day 6/30, since 2 weeks I walk everyday morning to university, I feel better and more powerful, I don't need coffee. That's a wonderful feeling.
My name is Bryant and I'm a sex addict. The longest I've gone without PMO is 24 days. The second longest time I've gone without it is about two weeks. I'm in for 30 days and I'm making this my #1 priority. Just waiting for my day counter to reset
Had to restart. 17.01. is the beginning day. Nevertheless, I feel pretty good about myself. How this might be, on the day of a relapse? Simple, my biggest problem was that I had problems connecting with others, especially talking about emotions. But I am currently, actively, working on it! Met yesterday with a girl and talked about my problems. Today I invited another friend over to my place and he really helped me a lot. He focused on that inner voice which tells you that you are not enough, and explained how this voice puts labels on you "undesirable", "unlovable", "ugly", "fat", whatever. And if you let this voice speak long enough, then it creates a narrative that is going to have more and more power over you, because if a lie is repeated long enough, you will believe it. That's also why it's so important to open up and talk about what is going on with you. Especially your darkest thoughts and fears that you have about yourself, that's what you need to tell others. Only when they hear it and tell you that it's not true, that this is not how they see you, that voice becomes less powerful. To put it in a nutshell: had a friend over, we had a great conversation, he had a great insight about the negative inner voice that helped a lot.
Day 0. I'm kind of on a 'binge streak' more than a no-PMO streak. This has to stop. Now. I'm ruining myself. To anyone reading this: Do whatever you feel but never watch P!!! It's like soul suicide and bodily stress in the same package. It's surely the devil's (or whatever you wanna call it) work. Stay away from that stuff and anything associated with it. I'm reminding myself the hard way but you guys with even a couple of day streaks, don't lose heart and keep going!
Thanks for the reminder bro! I Hope you can recover immediately from your binge streak. Let's go brother! Let's keep the fight going! I know you can do this @slitebg