Day 3...success! Entering day 4. This is the part of the week I dread...Friday! I usually spend my Friday nights alone so there is more room to get into PMO...I'm going to have to find something to do to occupy that time productively.
Day 5 of 14, (real count, day 7, but for this particular thread, day 5). Insane urges last nite and this is the time I get them days 7-9...haven't made it past 9 yet. I'm also dead sober, have been for over a week and the urge just came on fuckin' strong. Fuck!! I grabbed my schwartz and immediately started thinking about going all the way back to ZERO for just a few seconds of pleasure. It was very, very close last nite, but I made it.
Day 6 of 14 done The urges before getting up were strong today. I was really close to a relapse there, but I managed to get under the shower before something happened. Again my brain tried to trick me into thinking, that over 5 days is good and I deserve to edge or M or even O. Glad I did not give in to any of it. Beside that, I had a rather good day.
In four days I will reach a one month of no PM but I have antoher challenge which is orgasm.. I am still addicted to dopamine and I cannot control it (I can have orgasm without touching myself, no ejaculation, just orgasm but I release dopamine and lose little energy even though there isn't ejaculation). But to be honest I wish I had such a problem in May When I reach one month of no PM I will make another challenge - no PMO - orgasm can be only with girl. I think it can be more difficult but I will do it.
Day 10 done! Nearing the victory lap, but no time to be complacent. Still fighting hard Victory to us!
missed posting again, on day 7, i've been struggling hard with urges and it seems like any little thing will set me off, but going to try to make it to 14!
Well, I guess I'll be part of this thread just some time longer. Wasn't even resisting I just took the pmo train and boarded with it. Don't feel to bad about it and I'm not feeling down but a little dissapointed, haven't watched P in like a month or so. I guess its like quitting smoking but harder because you cant unbuy this "pack of cigarettes" or trow it out. Need to take over the fight, I cant let it control me, it must stop. 0/14
Day 9: Another day over with. I struggled like Wednesday but ultimately got through it. It's getting easier to say no overall and I'm not missing p at all. I'm rather enjoying the company of real people.
