I started this journey mostly to stop my porn abuse due to high stress at work. So lately I’m 82 days into the challenge, not really a challenge for me perhaps. I have not craved watching porn or nor masturbating but I did have some videos with my ex, we recently broke up, I listed to the recordings, not watch? Is this a relapse if I’m craving a real human interaction that did happened? I believe I have accomplished my goal, I did enjoy a lot our relationship, have higher pleasure on sex and I do crave real persons instead of watching porn nor masturbating
Yes. What you are doing is called "edging" - your addict brain trying to find ways to game the system and avoid sobriety. home-made P is still P. Its complicated and Ive had issues with this over the years. But its still building a relationship with your computer screen, flooding your dopamine system and self-medicating. Watch this:
