50 days PMO completed and my journey until today

I started watching porn since I was 10 years old. I had watched in uncle's phone, where I accidentally found out in his gallery. Since then had watched porn numerous times until 10th grade. When I was introduced to M by my friends. It felt really great that time.
Over the years I built in the habit of masturbating regularly. I couldn't even resist for 3 days. Looking back I see my life turned into some sort chaos due to these habit. Unable to get a girlfriend. I was always anxious, and the way I look upon women was simply not good. I had always thought that woman was for the pleasure of men.
But deep corner in my heart I always knew it was wrong. The amount of guilt it would construct in my brain was huge. Until recently I decided to make myself pure for god. He calls us to be holy for he is holy. And we know we need to avoid all the sexual immorality, and so on. The word impacted me. Then I decided to quit. I tried for several times, the one week streak was also seemed very hard to reach.i just couldn't resist myself. Although I had sustained myself from watching porn the M thing just wouldn't stop. All the imaginary plays in head would always keep on running.
And I tried again and again, and once reached to 28 days streak. I had never in my life felt that much confidence with interacting with girls and as if my tacking with this world has changed.
Then again I relapsed. Relapsed bad, couldn't resist, I watched P in my office. Since then, again the guilt kicked in. Prayer helped a lot. Again on this journey of 50 days streak. Looking at past I dont think my past self would believe that I could reach 50 days. But my aim is to last long without PM. Marry a girl.

 

[But what I noticed on this 7 days is I got freedom and confidence to talk with others , I will make PMO to 90 days , today is 6th May 2024 and will going[/QUOTE]
The surge of energy will keep on growing as you continue in this mission, I haven't felt this much confidence to talk with other girls with such positivity. I am never going to go back to that. You shouldn't too,brother. We are on a same purpose.

 

You should definitely try No M too, it has been lifechanger to me. The boost of energy I have felt, the confidence in god grew in large extent. "Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, then have we confidence toward God." 1 John 3:21

 

Update: 60 days completed !
With ups and downs of urges. Journey hasn't been easy. I still feel the urge to peel and lust issue still keeps on pondering. I sometimes struggle with sexual fantasies about the co workers. It surely has been difficult way to go forward. But I know, prayers help. I would keep on fighting with it and never give in to PMO.