I haven't looked at a porn image for 30 days. I did, however, do MO twice during this time. Once on day 14, and once on day 28 - so two weeks apart between each MO. I'll say, just plain MO is significantly less damaging than PMO. Porn is basically a hallucinogenic drug that stays in your system (your mind) for many hours and days after you have consumed it. However, MO is still very damaging and I would consider it also a bad, unhealthy thing to do. After MO, I noticed depression, weakness in energy, and also an increased, erratic desire for real sex. After MO the second time, I was laying down to sleep and saw in my mind a weird shaped guy floating sideways in the air. This image popped up in my imagination. I think it signified that masturbation is a very weird, unnatural, and bad thing to do from a spiritual perspective, that it somehow is a harmful thing to do to your spirit. Benefits of No Porn - Girls look better. The only girls you see now are girls in real life, no more porn images. So the girls in real life look better, and its also easier to connect with them because you are talking to another human being ... not a potential porn prostitute to view on camera - Easier to connect with people in general. I feel more of a child-like joy nowadays, and also am more calm with other people. I still have a lot of social anxiety, health anxiety, and other anxieties I need to get over. But this is a good start Conclusion --- if you are overwhelmed by a PMO urge, try to just MO. If you HAVE to relapse... just do MO. By doing only MO, you are not inputting all those porn images in your mind. If there are no porn images in your mind, then you are less likely to binge. Next Step To cut out MO as well. MO is still damaging. After MO, I am not able to think spiritual thoughts or feel elevated feelings. My courage and confidence also strongly decreases after MO, and anxiety increases. After MO, I am less courageous and adventurous to go out and try new things.
Thanks for the response.. yea, on one of the times I did MO on this streak, I just did it off of sensations, didn't fantasize. However, I still felt feelings of depression, anxiety, and lack of courage afterwards. It was still much better than PMO, but still were some bad side effects from it
True fact: The images linger in your mind for miles and miles day in and day out. I've never really thought of it as hallucinogen but that sounds very correct in what it is. I have to keep remembering this. You get the high but then you also get the low.
Yea, the low is so horrible, that I don't think I can even handle it again.. idk. I'm a little horrified of the consequences of PMO right now... even regular MO is still harmful though.. just not as bad
Thanks for mentioning. I didn’t realize how bad it truly was to relapse to PMO until recently. PMO relapse makes it take way longer to recover.
