I dont know what is happening, when i dont fapp and watch nude girls for more than 20days+ i feel good and in control of my desires, my dick is kinda dead in that time but i know its working, when i see beatiful girls in train, street, etc i just want to talk to them and nothing happens down there, but when i relapsed to hot pictures and release my load on other day im just like raging boner everywhere i go and see some girl that looks at me, its so fuucking uncomfortable, its like i need to sit, or tight my leg muscles to make boner go away or think about ALL kind of disgusting things like gay sex or disgusting poo or some other weird things. I also try intense focus on my breath to make it go away. The worst scenario is when im in train traveling to other city and some girl sit near me and we are alone and i know travel will last more than 2 hour and she is starring at me, that is nightmare for me, sometimes i feel like they do it for purpose to terrorize my desires and have fun of me when i try hide my boner in every possible way. Whats wrong with me? I dont have that kind of shiit when im on no fapp, that motivates me more. Also i think about change diet to vegan and dont eat stimulating food or other shiit like caffeine. Situation from today lead me to write this, i sat in train relaxed and reading my work and suddenly girl came ofcourse hot and sit infront of me, ofcourse i was attracted to her we catch eye contact and bang, boner, so i tried fake sleep close my eyes and think about other thing which ofcourse failed. Then train stoped on station i opened my eyes she looked at me and bite her lips and i was fuucking done, raging boner. Wat to do in sitations like this? I coudnt talk to her because i was embarrased. Always when im traveling train and im bussy i hope some old man or grandpa sit near me but its always diffrent. I add that im not that young guy where hormones are buzzing, im already 27 years old but still im very hyper sexual, im not even addicted to porn.
