This is very weird, everytime i relapse i got boners everywhere i go

I dont know what is happening, when i dont fapp and watch nude girls for more than 20days+ i feel good and in control of my desires, my dick is kinda dead in that time but i know its working, when i see beatiful girls in train, street, etc i just want to talk to them and nothing happens down there, but when i relapsed to hot pictures and release my load on other day im just like raging boner everywhere i go and see some girl that looks at me, its so fuucking uncomfortable, its like i need to sit, or tight my leg muscles to make boner go away or think about ALL kind of disgusting things like gay sex or disgusting poo or some other weird things. I also try intense focus on my breath to make it go away. The worst scenario is when im in train traveling to other city and some girl sit near me and we are alone and i know travel will last more than 2 hour and she is starring at me, that is nightmare for me, sometimes i feel like they do it for purpose to terrorize my desires and have fun of me when i try hide my boner in every possible way. Whats wrong with me? I dont have that kind of shiit when im on no fapp, that motivates me more. Also i think about change diet to vegan and dont eat stimulating food or other shiit like caffeine.

 

soundss like the chaser effect kicking in, if i relapse usually maybe 1 day or 2 later i get huge urges and for example i fapped about 6 times a while back it was like i was on via gra, but it may just be your brain craving it more and more

 

Yea i feel like it, especially when i lose some long streak, then i feel enormous need to release even more, empty my balls and im raging boner all the time, thats strange

 

Cut off your dick.

 

My dick is like wild animal, you just cant control wild boar or geopard

 

I noticed the same thing. When I relapse, all of a sudden I go crazy and am insatiable. Then I end up right back where I started. Depressed, weak, sore back, ringing ears, not confident. I think Porn has a lot to do with not being able to have just one orgasm. It revs up the brain way too much.

 

Maybe you can use this problem to remind yourself when you try to relapse?

 

Yes definitely. I try to remember that once I start again.... It's really difficult to stop. For sure.

 

Yes this motivate me most, im just annoyed by constant arousal around women after relapse, if im clean i am just calm as buddha.

 

That's normal, because your brain has memorized the sensation of the orgasm. It takes a while until it subsides.

 

Same here