Some benefits...not sure as of yet

34 days now. Actually 36. Beneifts.

• I feel less anxious...more secure. Like....before hand I was always jumpy as shit....moody. I feel more serene and calm.
• My mood is calmer like a said. Specifically, I always had these paranoid thoughts....like fuck this shit...fuck every body...whatever. Now I'm just chill.
• Anxiety.....I used to be really jumpy and ancy in alot of social situations. And scared of them generally, now I feel fine. It was like before hand...new situations threw me a curve ball, now I am ready for them.
• In terms of happiness, I guess the previous statements will say that I am a happier person. I'm more social. More spontaneous.
• Attention from females...right now I'm living in South East Asia for another year. Big culture and language barrier. Maybe when I get back to America women will be throwing their panties to me when I land. Female situation is the same they don't like talking with foreign men. Scared of them.

In sum, I guess overall my mood is better. More stable. Less cloudy. I feel like I can make more reasonsed decisions and deal with the ambiguity that life throws at me. Before this, I was one moody angry always with a slighty depressed mood muh fucka. Also, it was like...the world always a cup that wasn't just half empty, it was a 1/10th empty, and what was in it was dog shit with some rat piss that has been sitting there for weeks. Fuck that, years. Not years but you get the point.

One strange thing, I used to be a leech you know. Like really dependent on one person. Like not accepting if the person did anything other than talk to me. Now I don't feel that. I'm just like whatever.

I still have urges, and when I have them I have been making a concerted effort to get out of my house when they become to strong. The biggest motivator to me is the sucess stories people have posted, and the fact that I have already tasted the bad fruit of porn. I was masturbating 3/4 times a day before this-it was getting to the point where I have to look at porn for hours to O....and sex with real girls was becoming impossible.