Self-hatred

I feel very similar. You're not alone in this.
Perhaps it’s a catch 22 situation.
I believe I will hate myself less, if I can control my addiction, and gain more willpower, self esteem, self respect etc.

 

I spose one could, as I think Ghandi or some old wise fella said, separate the sin from the sinner.

Realize that your fundamental self doesn't involve the bullshit. However, also respect the fact that the bullshit came into your life from un-met needs.

Instead of looking at the shite habits we have as these big huge awful things, maybe looking at them as red flags- as ways your deeper self is cuing you to the fact that you're off the path.

Cuz when we're on the right path and our whole self is nourished from purpose and people and a full life, then we don't need porn and drugs and junk to fill a hole that isn't there.

So maybe just not identifying with the bad habits is a start to respect yourself. Consider the possibility that you have a deeper sense of self that is full of potential and worthy of respect. At the very least, this will afford you some extra energy that would have otherwise been wasted in shame and self-loathing feedback loops that Lightning Boy mentioned above there.

 

The way you can stop hating yourself boils down to confidence in my opinion. Have a talk with yourself and reflect on your life about the things you're good at and bad at. Look for ways you can improve whether they're negative or positive. You have all the answers within. Trust me.