I am fighting this addiction for two years it so hard for I feel so lonely I just relapsed ineed some good advice or something because its tough as hell
The first piece of advice I would give you would be to stop any forms of self-condemnation or shaming. You wouldn't shame a sick person for being sick would you? No, so stop doing it to yourself. This will help you break out of the relapse, shame, guilt, relapse cycle. Sure, it might take time but eventually you'll start climbing out, which brings me to my second point; have patience with yourself. You didn't become an addict over night and you're not going to be recovered overnight. Also don't be surprised when you relapse. I see so many people amazed that they relapsed, which only leads me to believe that most people do not understand that the road to recovery and success is paved with both relapses and your perseverance to continue forward despite them. Also I forgot to mention that every relapse offers you the opportunity to learn something about your addiction. Study your relapse; what triggers did you face? What time did the relapse happen? What were the circumstance which lead up to the relapse? Sometimes you'll find out that your actual triggers started hours, maybe even days, before your relapse. When reviewing your behavior try to "notice" them. Noticing is a great word to use because it allows you to have a unbiased and non-judgmental approach when confronting your own behavior/feelings.
