Hi there! My first month. Finally. Yeah, but let's be honest, we all know that nofap is not about days, it's a process. I would like to share my "success" story. I wrote success in braces because I am not there yet. But on the way About me: I started like most Fapstronauts around 12 years old. First was masturbation then some magazines when I was a little bit older and then the high-speed internet finished the job. In my case, we can add weed. The tone of weed. In the last few years, my MPO was related to weed. I loved that feeling, watching porn being high. Unfortunately, that fucked me up. A little bit. One month ago I had drug tests in my company. I passed only because I cheated. I knew about drug tests a few days earlier. That was a wake-up call for me. I knew if I will be caught I am done. But because my MPO and weed were so connected, I needed to quit both at the same time. In my case, smoking weed without MPO was boring. It wasn't a social thing. Even if I smoked with my friends, my mind was trying to find a way to get out and MPO. That was for a few years. I had breaks from weed because I don't find weed addictive, to be honest. At least in my case. I mean, the first day was always hard because of compulsive thoughts, another was ok. So.. a month ago: Lazy Daydreamer Tired all the time Couldn't sleep all night, I woke up every 2 hours Worried about everything all the time.... basically ALL THE TIME! Whenerver there was a problem, I was close to having an attack of panic Vetegable lifestyle No motivation I was late to work very often. Usually, because I couldn't motivate myself to leave my bed. Month later Still lazy Much more confident My daydreaming went from 100% to 5%. It's boring. More energy I sleep all night. I am going to bed around 9:30 pm, and wake up at 5:00 am. Then lay in my bed for 15 minutes looking through the window and enjoying birds singing. I am at work 6 am. One hour before normally we start. I don't remember at which point I stopped to worry but generally, it went from 100% to like 10%. But it's more like, I have concerns and need to take some action. I am smashing problems right now. Things I was dealing with last year. I solved it in one day 2 weeks ago. LOL I am much more motivated Started to learn things I always wanted as at some point I want to change my carrier. More energy Summary. I am not going to lie. I fucked up myself a little bit because of weed. I have a problem with short and long memory. It's slowly getting better. Every day is better and thats gives me the motivation to continue. I experience a kind of derealization. It's like being drunk without drinking. It's weird, but I have it all the time. Hard to explain. I had that years ago because of an overdose of caffeine, and nicotine... add weed and mpo, and thats a prescription for disaster. Do I take supplements? Yes. Vitamin D ( prescribed by the doctor because of my blood test results). Some multivitamins for a little bit too high cholesterol, same story as with Vitamin D. I am not taking anything for my libido, erections, whatever. As I said, I am not in a rush. I want this process to be natural. Things I want to change: I quit smoking and coffee today. Still fresh but I need to do it. I was told that will help me with my cholesterol ( and a billion other things!). I will use the same strategy as I used with urges during nofap. Whenever I will have urges, I will not fight with them. I will just say in my mind "That's normal.. that's part of the process... it would be weird if I felt no urges at all". I will start to exercise today after work Sexual part. I experienced PIED for years. At the moment my libido is close to 0. No urges, no sexual fantasies. Nothing. I think I hit the flat line. I don't care to be honest. I am not in a rush. So... Today is my first month without MPO (hard mode) and Weed. I will carry on. I am not there yet But very excited about the future!
