My Journal :)

Hey Folks,

I am at a point where I simply don't know where I am heading right now...it is as if I am in a void somehow. I know this addiction is bad and I know I need to stop, but somehow it gets the upper hand every time (almost every time)
This journal is my way out of this addiction

I really would be glad if you could write some words here from time to time! I would sincerely appreciate it

 

I think, if I could at least come here everyday and say something and talk with you and share my progress - than I could find a way out of this addiction. I could add from time to time some habits, so it doesn't overwhelm me, but in the same time challenges me

If you have any questions, feel free to ask!

 

Well relapsed at night...should keep my phone away from bed

 

Thank you @Hamza Ji
I will look into the challenge, maybe you are right and I need some "guidance"
How is your journey going?

 

Feeling like crap!
I need to change my mindset
Currently reading Psychocybernetics by Maxwell Maltz - great book! It is telling me many things about our thoughts and the impact of those on our daily life
If I think of myself, that I am a porn addict, thank I will act accordingly - my mind will create the surroundings and my thoughts to align the perception of me (Bering an porn addict)

 

Good day,

did it two times today
Not proud of it - trying to workout today!
Do you have some ideas, where I can start? Which things I could do?
Trying to exercise today!

 

Workout out yesterday! Felt great!!!
I think I have to implement not eating sweets like honey anymore, cause everytime I eat them, I am more prone to relapse
Going for an exam today - my last one for this semester

 

Today relapsed two times...I don't know...
I think I'll try the following:

1. I'll try to concentrate on the urge and on the feelings and thoughts in this moment
2. Immediately go off the phone, as soon as I feel a little urge or thought appearing
3. What to do instead? I need to think of something - maybe household chores

If you have some improvement ideas, I'll be glad hearing them!

ChangMyMind

 

Hello my Friends

Today is my day 2. Feeling fine. Was out there yesterday socialising and never even had a thought of p*rn. Wonderful feeling

Will keep you updated!

ChangeMyMind

 

Well, that was a step in the wrong direction - I need to be more cautious about the points I wrote previously!!!

ChangMyMind ))

 

I stepped today in the wrong direction
I don't know, but everytime an urge comes it shuts down my brain. Do some of you have an idea how to stop that? Like breath work? Does this help?

Thank you!

 

Trying to maintain this blog
I worked out three days in a row and I feel good )

 

Well it is day 0 again...and I am feeling wrecked to be honest
Do want to do anything and just want to sleep