I feel like i had a good run the last months, i had very few relapses and my intrusiv thoughts (older uploads) about femdom stuff… But i have this feeling in me which sometimes overwhelmse me completly, my mind goes ape shit. And then relapse. And honestly im scared of again genre escalation and having to go through all this shit again.
Try not to worry about it. You made the most important first step - acknowledging you have a problem. Everything is going to be fine. Just keep at it and keep trying. The person in the previous post talks about how religion helped them. I don't even think you need religion to succeed. It's all inside you. Just have to keep getting back up after each relapse and you just have to keep going further.
I tried the religion thing. All it did was make me feel like a huge hypocrite. How anyone can do the kinds of things I did and then run around pretending to be a good Christian is beyond me. Like, "I was a depraved, degenerate, pervert BUT THEN I CAME TO CHRIST." Yeah, right, whatever...
