Hi, It's 4 AM and I just wasted about $180 on a findom. I'm fucked up and hating myself. Still I'll strive to be compassionate to myself, but I think we all know how hard that can be. I also know that self-hatred is the fuel for addiction. I'm desperate. I've been trying to get off porn for years. I'm 54. I have an amazing wife and two young sons. Porn is threatening to destroy everything I have. I've been in therapy. I've read all the books. I joined a web program, but I keep fucking up. The worse part is the isolation. My wife caught me in the past and threatened to leave me if she caught me again, so I can't talk to her about it. It's not exactly the kind of thing you share with friends. So here I am. Tonight has to be the bottom. It has to be. I wish I had a more upbeat intro...
We all have different circumstance, but most of us here have shared that feeling of hitting rock-bottom. This is a community with shared experiences and a common goal. You will find help and support here, not judgment. Welcome.
Welcome to NoFap! The big difference now is that you are no longer alone. Here you can say whatever it is you need to say. I would strongly suggest you go to the Reboot Logs section and begin your own journal there to record your NoFap journey. Others will write replies for you, and you can write in their journals too, and make new friends. I joined NoFap only six months ago - but it has transformed my life. Mate, call out if you need help with anything ok. Cheers!
Yellow Thank you for your honesty and good job reaching out. I think you will find this site has a number of men like us who struggle with various sexual issues and share a common desire to be free of them. Don't feel as though you are alone. Reach out to others here. Find men who are successful in the battle for inspiration and use the experience of men who fall as a learning experience for yourself. We are here for you. JQ
Welcome to NoFap where you have seen you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and not judge you. One of the most important things you can do is determine what the root is to your addiction and the second thing is determining your triggers. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?