I'm 23, I manage to get a girl into the bedroom and once again the dreaded PIED strikes again, I'm so tired of this. I try to escape this cycle of PMO, constantly looking for different highs in porn normal people don't watch. But I can't escape it, sexual release in the form of PMO helps me to sleep, it shapes my week, it keeps me focused. Yet I see myself as weak, and a non functioning member of society. I need to reboot this again and sort my life out, it's so hit or miss, and it's starting to ruin my life again. The embarrassment is horrible, but the high I get from PMO is well a worthy trade off to keep succeeding in life. Yet I'm not succeeding in life, this cycle is so detrimental to my mental health and image and I do believe in semen retention to a degree. I definitely feel the benefits from holding it in. But this dopamine reward cycle has pained me for so many years, it's as Dexter would describe my Dark Passenger, it's been my release from my terrible childhood. From a young age I have took comfort in porn and it's falsified my mindset and has again ruined what could have been a great night. I'm here now because I don't want to feel worthless anymore, I want to feel invigorated I have such an addictive personality, starting today I'm going to embark on a new reboot I want to feel normal again, I want to escape this non conventional porn cycle I'm stuck in. It's truly the bane of my life
Only you can fight this. This is a gradual process so dont get discouraged after relapsing. Fail 7 stand up 8. Have patience courage and get ready for a long journey. I heal my pied and my libido and now i can have sex multiple times a week. My suggestion is to never ever stop trying. Focus on your goal. Fails will exist so dont get discouraged and accept this fact. My approach is to always focus on making the next streak longer than the previous one. If you can make it to 3 days and relapse focus to make it to 5-7 days, dont binge, dont punish yourself accept your relapse and focus on your next target. I needed 3 years to heal pied with many ups and downs but i succeeded. Follow me and check my posts. Also, feel free to ask me anything about pied and my journey!
I am feeling confident now, I have had my ups and downs, yes the dreaded relapse. I haven't been chronic on it as I've been busy so I feel like my healing time will be a lot quicker than before. I'm gonna go for a long one this time. The longest I went was like 6-7 weeks during basic training. The thing is we all know here that porn isn't normal and shouldn't have a place in our lives, especially when it develops into worse porn. I will get through this and fix it! I have had sex during my relapses ect. But it's never the same when on NoFap, you don't realise the desensitization it causes. I have always suffered with delayed ejaculation, my main goal is to focus on that and reset this terrible dopamine cycle. Thank you for your kinds words my man.
