Building A New Future For Myself

I'm a 15 year old male and I'm new to NoFap.(Please don't mind my grammar as I don't speak in English very often and this might be a little long so it's your choice if you want to read it or not and I gave the wrong birth details.). I was introduced to porn and fap when I was a 9 year old kid ,till then I was always a cute chubby kid, I was good in sports and studies , when I initially started watching porn, I had no guide to tell me the harmful effects of porn and fap , it was an awesome activity at that time , but soon I noticed that my grasping power on studies and other extra curricular activities wasn't as good as it was before , and soon when I was a 11 year old kid , I started watching hardcore porn and I fapped 2-3 times a day, then my grades started going down , my talent in sports and music was still there but not so much , soon when I was a 12 year old ,I started becoming insecure about the size of a certain body part of mine , then soon I noticed that I am not able to focus on studies or anything else and I was becoming a repuslive overweight person , I started becoming unsocial and when I was 14 , I was a failure in my class , I couldn't do anything and few of my certain so called friends encouraged me to watch porn even more so that I could learn more ways to have an intercourse , soon all I did was come home , open up the phone and watch porn because I used to be alone at home for a few hours , then I watched porn and ate junk food and fapped to what I watched more than 2 times a day ,then suddenly, one of my cousin told me many different reasons why not to watch porn and fap, soon I started checking out these websites of NoFap because I realized that porn was ruining everything I have , I also realized that I was a big liar and cheat , my parents worked so hard to raise me , fulfill my demands and making sure that I eat good food and I get good grades meanwhile I was the fool who was betraying them , hiding stuff from them , sneaking around them , they worked so hard for me meanwhile I was betraying them and geting bad grades and ruining my talent , I don't even have the courage to tell them about this problem because I think it will just make them even more sad and worried about my future so I decided to stop this once and for all , I am new to NoFap and this is my fifth day of NoFap and porn , my case may not be an extreme but I don't want to make myself an extreme case , this website helps me motivate myself and good luck to the other newcomers who have also joined this website for similar reasons.

Thank you and stay blessed