7 months

Hello,

First of all, I apologize for any mistakes, I use an online translator.

I'm 37 years old, I'm gay. I've always known this. Until I was 26, I didn't accept it. This was my biggest secret, which I faced alone. How I dealt with it is a tendentious question. I discovered porn and masturbation. It was my way of dealing with my emotions. I've been doing this every day since I was 11. At first it was great, but after years I subconsciously knew that something was wrong because I couldn't stand a single day without porn. It was a fight doomed to failure. Every day for years was a nail in my coffin, undermining my self-confidence, faith in my abilities, etc. The first stage lasted from the age of 11 to 26, when I decided that I had to meet someone, someone with whom I would fall in love. I can not live like that. First guy, first time flop. No erection. I didn't know what was happening. With porn no problem, in real life it's a disaster. The second attempt was the same. I blamed it on hard physical work and stress. After a year, I met the guy of my dreams. We have been together for 10 years.
I used sildenafil secretly for 10 years. Real sex was intertwined with masturbation in front of the tablet. Due to my disorders, I have always been on the bottom, I have never penetrated. Lack of self confidence. I reached a point called rock bottom. The pills stopped working. I have had two psychotherapies. Since January 2023, I don't watch porn or take pills. My partner knows about my problem. Love me, so luckily you stay with me. Since August 22, I have stopped mastubating completely. No porn, no masturbation, no pills. I've already had 70 days to use it. Do I believe in nofap? I read everything and there are many other aspects. For me it makes sense how the whole dopamine mechanism works. But subconsciously I feel like I'm in a bad ass. I think I'm asexual, nothing turns me on, kisses, my guy's huge penis. I don't know when to come to me. I'm an attractive guy, I have a lot of equipment, but I've gotten it to the point where I can't use it. I have times when I have morning erections, there are days when I don't have them at all. Have I been successful? In my opinion, yes. I found out my biggest secret from my beloved. For about 9 years, the whole family has known that I am homosexual and I accept it. He went to two psychotherapies, I talked to a guy about sildenafil and I threw away all the pills. Check my cabling usage. belly, up to 90 days, but my goal is to regain health and real sex with a human being. No more porn, every single hand masturbation. Keep fingers crossed.

 

Is there anyone who had a similar situation, took pills for years and managed to restore erections naturally?

 

preliminary examination, I am as healthy as a fiddle. getting an erection after watching porn is possible without any problem. Now I think I'm in a flat line, I don't want to do anything. I'm 100% gay, I don't have a problem with it anymore

 

Day 88 passes, still no porn or masturbation. I have virtually no sexual arousal throughout my entire nofap period, until now. Something is starting to happen down there, not much, but it gives me hope that I'm going in the right direction

 

Today, for the first time since I don't remember when, I slept like the dead. For years I have been waking up at night, tossing and turning. and today I fell asleep and woke up only in the morning when the alarm clock rang. incredible.

 

I feel like I'm feeling better all the time. I have more respect for myself. Nofap causes self-confidence and some strength in changing other habits, e.g. eating, limiting social media, etc. Libido is currently low, morning wood at 80%, but not always

 

jestem zmęczony psychicznie. Linia płaska trwa tak długo, zero libido, zero podniecenia seksualnego. kiedy to się skończy. usunąłem facebooka i instagram. czy ja kiedykolwiek wyzdrowieje?

 

almost 5 months have passed, probably 4 night hunts along the way. still a flat line when it comes to erection. although recently I'm starting to be tempted and I looked at a few photos. In total, I masturbated 3 times during these 5 months. I have night erections every day. I wait for the flatline to disappear.

 

Minęło 7 miesięcy. Coraz częściej mam mega mocną nocną 100% erekcję.

 

I see a slow process of recovery. Recently, while talking to my boyfriend while holding hands, I got a partial erection. so that's something

 

I'm angry with myself, I started watching a series about Rocco Siffredi on Netflix. And in the end I saw 1 porn movie, strange because I couldn't even get an 80% erection, but I came. I thought that after such a long time I would have an erection without any problems.