30 days today

Great job! Keep up the good work for the next 30 days!

 

Keep up the good work!

 

Congrats on your sobriety! Keep at it and the rewards will continue to get exponentially better.

For me, getting sober and staying stopped was an ongoing battle for many years. Things did not begin to materialize until I fully surrendered to my addiction and vowed to actively work a program of recovery consistently one day at a time. I am here to report, it's been working.

Wishing you the best bro!

 

I’m day 32 and experiencing the flatline know how it’s feels. The flatline is such an appropriate name for it feels like a flat beer or Coca Cola. Just got to stay focus and know that a day without PMO is a good day.

 

Good thought.

 

Slowly but surely

 

Beautiful sentiment.

 

Very well done mate . Keep going . On day 31 myself , also have hit the flatline , which if I didn’t know about ,would have shocked me back into PMO , but we know we need to go through this . So let’s do it !

 

thank you bro . Still going , on day 37 . Hope you still staying strong brother ?

Yesterday was a tough day . I felt stressed , and my brain immediately started thinking about PMO . I was able to resist though .

It’s the no motivation thing with the flatline that is driving me mad . The first 2-3 weeks my motivation was up , and then suddenly I hit the flatline , and it disappeared .

 

The flatline is cruel, I don't get why it happens and it has happened to me. If this was another addiction, our withdrawals would have been finished in the first few weeks. It doesn't seem fair that when we are doing the right thing and in my case trying to have better sex with my wife I get flatline and have ED issues. It led me back to porn, but this time I won't let the flatline ruin my streak.

 

ya bro … that’s exactly it . It suddenly makes you want to run back to porn for a few different reasons , but then I keep thinking how disappointed I would be if I did, and broke this streak ( the longest I’ve had ) , but it’s a constant argument in my head .

Today I few times I had those thoughts when you try and justify a relapse .

physically I can see differences in my skin quality , brighter eyes . I also notice my eye contact is more intense , and confident . I’m loving all these things …. I just have lost the motivation feeling I had in the first few weeks .
Another day down though . Day 38 . Let’s hope things get better .

Wishing you the best with your sobriety brother

 

Congratulation. I don't know, maybe the flatline is a part of the rewiring process for your brain

 

Thanks for the reply . Ya , from what I’ve read it has something to do with the dopamine withdrawal symptoms, but man it sucks .

The mind really starts to fight back

 

It's tough because of the broken feeling, then the porn fixes it, but that's only temporary as the vicious cycle continues. I'll ride it out for the long run and try to change almost everything in my current life. This way I'll be so distracted, porn and MO should not be on my mind as much as it is today.

 

yeah bro...head on in this...what was happening in my life was impacted by this addiction, all through college where I was establishing a career..and man it destroyed it.It was the secret life lived with other addicted ppl. Wish I knew about this site then,but Im glad I'm here