Well I was on solid progress, 170 hard mode on my first attempt and a couple of mo's in the last month. Then a tough weekend working, and a few beers in front of the TV was all it took for my resolve to weaken. First it was a bit of babestation then straight back to the old routine of surfing for the next 'new'thing. I feel empty, ashamed and stupid. Guys, don't let your guard Down. Not even for a moment. I knew this was building as was at an event all weekend where people dressed up in period costumes. The girls all looked hot and my attention was drawn to cleavage and stockings. All it took was beer, tiredness and a lack of resolve. Now the difficult bit. Ignore the chaser effect and get back in the zone. But having been on this journey I know it works. I am no longer depressed, my anxiety is manageable, I have gained a promotion at work with a 30% pay rise and most importantly things between my girlfriend and I are far improved. We are well on track to being better than ever, whereas before I couldn't see a future, now I do. Back to using the panic button. Which I had deleted from my bookmarks as I was feeling so good about my progress. Thanks to all you guys and galls whose stories have helped me steer through this challenging but rewarding process.
I recently fell after my first successful 55 days and can't get back on track and am feeling defeated, too.
Don't feel ashamed, there is no reason to harp on the past right now. All you need to do is get back to where you were before, and I know that's not easy but you did it once you can do it again.
I almost failed today, reading this helped. I always think of the hours saved, the new activities, and the better days.
