Yeah i plan to do a total dopamine detox for speed up things. Arousal is there yes and no for now, but I know it will grow. I hope to enter in a total flaltine which usually heal things up
Can't recommend finding a girl to Rewire with enough, it's the best thing imo, just nofap and try to Rewire irl is probably the most effective thing you can do. Just don't beat yourself up if you don't get aroused/finish and be open with her and it should be good.
I already started hardmode, i m on day 4 now. After a week i go again. No femdom urges, not even once this 4 days.
Yesterday i did PMO to vanilla after 8 or 9 days of hardmode. I was having problem to mountain full erection at first but later it was fine. Maybe because i was in flatline. Today i did PMO to vanilla again and had better erections than yesterday.
I had femdom temptations today but i didn't fail in trap. I just repeat myself over and over again that i don't need it. To be honest sometimes i m little nervous will i ever be able to beat this. But i believe i will. I have problem with feeling arousal to vanilla, i can have erections sometimes even without touching but arousal is rare for me to happen. How are you doing? All fine?
Doing good, once you find a healthy outlet (vanilla) the fetish stuff won't bother you as you will know it doesn't define you.
It’s been a while since I’ve been on here and I can say I have a gf now and things are going well, the ocd sometimes makes me feel like I don’t like her and I find her unattractive but ik it’s not true. We recently were making out and I loved it, every second of it but after a while I didn’t feel like doing it anymore but that was because I was tired. I’m here because I can’t seem to get up when I go to m, it’s always like have baked but when I’m with her it’s always well done. Is there something wrong with me or? The hocd thoughts are still here but with her they are at the back of my mind.
@Sirocdthe3rd I think everything is fine with you mate, just go easy and don't stress yourself, be patient and peaceful there is no time for despair, good to hear that you have a girlfriend! Today i was able to PMO twice to vanilla, first time i just had a boner and second time was at evening i just wanted to try if i could do it again. I tried first with just MO(vanilla fantasies) and i was able to get erections without porn and without touching but it was difficult but finished with porn.
This is just a check in, recently received oral sex from my gf, but I can’t stop worrying I have an std, but I’ve never had sex before and neither has she I was her first kiss and the whole nine yards. I have a feeling this is just ocd but it’s bothering me, I’ve been a sickly kid and I can’t stop looking up shit. The hocd is still here but it’s not bad anymore.
I have watched femdom porn yesterday, after all this i made a greatest mistake again. Didn't PMO to it but i have failed. I will go for vanilla today.
Relapsed to femdom again, i just can't hold myself, i will do 3 days nofap hardmode and go to vanilla again.
Keep going bro. Having self-reflection means you are already on the right way. Now what we need is to think of how to keep it constantly. Having guilty is important but remember, do not let it overwhelm you. Have faith in god, just as how he have faith in you. You will surely rebuild a new life and see a unbelievably better version of yourself. There are many others suffering in Nofap as we do. Helping them will also help you out of this. Here are my tips to reduce urges and recovery. 1. Reduce the amount of meat in your meal. You will find your mind was generally getting peaceful. 2. Find a way to get out of your room (E.g. doing exercise) and gradually stay away from soft triggers in social media and internet (Soft porn is too common you know). 3. When the urge come put down everything, I could easily calm myself down, and then go clean up my room. Removing all unclean stuff (like removing garbage in mind), and put things back to the way they should be, would certainly helps to clean up your mind. Hopefully it helps.
Hello friends i haven't visit thread almost 2 month. I came back here to let you know that i m not given up. I relapsed several times during April and May which ended my almost 2 months femdom free period. But now i m back and now i m about two weeks femdom free, i don't know exactly right number because i don't really count days anymore, it doesn't matter to me, what matters to me is to be free. I m having fine erections and sometimes even enjoy about vanilla. How are you doing guys?
I relapsed once somewhere around 10th or 12th Jun and i m about two weeks+ free from femdom i will try my best not to waste my time and chance again, i m really serious this time, i always was but this time is different. Whenever urge for femdom comes i always telling myself that is not what i deserve, that is wrong, that is not healthy, why i m doing all of this and expect femdom? I won't waste my time. Hope you guys are doing well.
I still hold myself strong, i was having femdom urges but i didn't get caught. I m almost four weeks free. Hope i forever be.