@BruceD - Great focus. I'm glad to see that you're avoiding the binge. Stay strong ! I will say a prayer for you, @BruceD, for an even stronger step forward!! GOD'S PEACE!!
wow... 'The longer that your brain heals, the more you see yourself with honesty.' Thanks LifeWorthLiving!!! for that powerful sentence. Without the weeks and months of porn haze we glimpse reality.
Seeing things with clarity is not always easy. Some things are easy to see and some things are difficult. Really seeing weaknesses can be a tough thing after being asleep for decades. But it gives you a baseline to start from. Therein lies the hope for change. Real change starts with clarity and honesty. Thanks for the post! GOD'S PEACE!!!
Hit 341 today. Grateful. One of the greatest gifts of no PMO is a renewed sense of integrity. I used to feel like a terrible person. Now, people can look into me and I have nothing to hide. I am proud of the man that I am finally becoming . GOD'S PEACE!!!
Having a GREAT day. Clear minded, dealing with a work conflict today and did not get angry. Stayed cool. GOD'S PEACE!!!
I had a dream / (bad dream) that I relapsed with masturbation. This is the 3rd time that I had a relapse dream in the last 11 months. The dream was very real - woke up thinking, for about 5 minutes, that I had lost progress, then remembered the circumstances in the dream that were not reality - and then I was back to reality. Like before, there was no O. I wanted to post this to get it out of my brain. Dreams do not involve my free will, but I am still bothered by them. GOD'S PEACE!!!
I have had a great couple of days. With greater clarity, able to see myself with my strengths and weaknesses, I am connecting with people around me on an even deeper level. I feel renewed with a deeper self respect; less feelings of inferiority and able to realize that everybody struggles with weaknesses and self respect. GOD'S PEACE!!!
Listening to faded and reading this is amazing, congrats on the 11 months bro! and thanks for the inspiration
It's posts like these that Keep us strong. Keep us going for the long haul. Sometimes we get a streak and the light shines through just a bit and we think....Is this it? We're convinced and we get comfortable and eventually relapse. I know there's more and what you've described is what I've hoped to see. I know there's more... Trying to become the best version of myself(ourselves) means getting rid of this demon that holding me(us) back from so much. So much life to live, much more fun to have, many more people to invite into my life and learn about and enjoy the company of. I know there's more and this tells me I've only felt the light that was coming through the keyhole. I was getting close to the door but I never reached it. Glad I found this post. Prime booster for the day.
GREAT ANALOGY - light through keyhole. I like that. It's true. There was a quite that said, "I already know what it means to give in, I want to find out what it means to succeed. " I gave in for years. But now I grow each day. Loving the changes that I see each day. Thanks for the encouragement!! GOD'S PEACE!!!
Wow man, 347 days PMO-Free! I can't go further than a week. Last night I relapsed and I didn't have much motivation. But you inspired me so much! I can't wait to see myself reaching over a year. But for now, my goal is 1 week. Have a good day!
I take it for granted now, that I have a lot more time and energy without PMO. I since its not an option, I am free to do so much more. GOD'S PEACE !!!