What are the biggest reasons you chose to do this? for me it’s my desire to not mentally cheat on my wife with porn. I began to watch harder and harder types of porn to chase that novelty and I’m disgusted by what I watched. I hate that I still crave that depraved content in lieu of vanilla sex with my wife. I’m going to wash my brain of this crap so that I can focus on what’s real and what matters.
My motivation is not to be dependent on something, and to be a honest person (as PMO is something we do in secret).
You only crave it because society has brainwashed you to believe that you need orgasms to have a happy life. And PMO is a way to get (additional) orgasms, and the harder the genre, the "bigger" the orgasm of course as you do something which is taboo. Society wants you to be a masturbating monkey which watches videos of other hominoid apes copulating and doing strange things (remember: most fetishes have nothing sexually intrinsically!). If you want to be free, you need to see how the brainwashing works, namely: we make our happiness depend on something which isn't actually important in life, videos of humans having sex are no better than videos of gorillas copulating, and fetishes do not have anything sexually intrinsically
Porn is brainwashing by the pornographers to hurt the male population, hurts romantic relationships, is frustrating to not have control of my actions.
You only don't have control over your addiction because the brainwashing is still active. Porn is just the result of that brainwashing, and "hurting the male population and relationships" is its consequence, like lung cancer is for cigarettes. The actual brainwashing is the belief that orgasms are extremely important, and without these, life is just half full. That's why we crave porn in the first place, we want to orgasm and porn is just the way to amplify it. But we forget that the reason we want to orgasm in the first place is society It's laughable how much fire there is about such a stupid and not important thing like orgasms, it just shows how primitive the human race is
I feel that I have not ever been my true self in adolescence. I've always watched porn and felt its toxic grip on my mental health; never happy with myself, low self esteem, confidence, and social anxiety. I have a great girl who I can't maintain an erection for which is destroying me and that is my motivation. I've never accepted that porn might be an issue until this streak so this is my first attempt at properly tackling it.
