Guys, I failed after 3 weeks of no PMO. I basically have quit watching porn for last 65-70 days. I don't even want to go to that dark place. I started watching some erotic movies and today, I M'd to that movie. I didn't wanted to, but the urge was so strong that I had to. I have been watching those movies for past 3 days continuously on ipad. I HAVE to remove that app on ipad to watch movies/shows. I don't feel stupid or depressed, but I want to STRONGLY OVERCOME this addiction. I am substituting porn with erotic movies (nude scenes and stuff), which is still WRONG. I also want to get rid of the thoughts which comes while abstaining from PMO. I want to have healthy and fruitful life/relationship with my loving and caring wife. I failed the May month test to stay PMO free, but I hope I can stay PMO free for next 15 days (includes NOT watching suggestive movies/images/articles etc) and take it from there.
Hey Actuate. Listen, it's ok, don't beat yourself up. Just start over. I just PMO'd after 52 days and 22 hours. I spent most of that time in disbelief that I was going so long without doing it. I slipped because I got complacent: I had stopped hanging out here on nofap on a regular basis, and was taking my success for granted. I've been having fabulous sex with my wife, and I let my guard down. But beating myself up is not going to happen. Why? Because that is the surest way to guarantee that I will get back into the habit. I remain focused on the present and the future, not the past. Yeah, I screwed up, but it's over. I want to stay on the path I've been on because it's so amazing. I love having great sex, I love having time to attend to things I've let slip by the wayside over the years, I love the commanding feeling of NOT having to fap all the time. Regarding urges, the only thing I can say is if you wait, they go away. It's agonizing for all of a minute or two, but just wait, and it goes away. This is a mantra for myself, and I hope it works for you. It will work again for me.
