Well I got about 4 months of no porn behind me. My life has improved immensely. I'll continue to not watch porn and not masturbate. I just feel like there's nothing to talk about anymore... I've said all I need to say. Also, I feel I need to just be away from blogs. You see, I really hate other people, especially on blogs. People often talk shit and I can't do anything about it behind this screen (not here, other blogs). It pisses me off. I feel like I am just very Angy, sad, confused, etc. Rebooting brings back the emotions in ya. I just need some time to myself. Don't worry I'll never watch porn again that's for sure. I just think I need to sort my emotional life out. You see, I have done some bad things in the past that I now feel different about. I was cold hearted and ruthless. It was the porn, PMO. I was numb to emotion. I am trying to become a good person but it's hard. I have a choice in my life. Two roads, one is live a normal good life, the other is live the evil bad life. The demons are dragging me to the evil life which I am so attracted to. Idk. This is not a sympathy thread. I just feel like I am an evil person. I am dangerous, I need to just be by myself for awhile. Idk. You guys have been great. Very supportive. Don't know where I'd be without you. @RepentMySins You are a good dude, I know you'll make it. Keep going strong ur my dude on this forum! @IGY You've been a real good help for me. Thanks for being strict on me when I needed it most! Your one of the most dedicated Fapstronauts I know! @xjbert1423 your like a lil bro to me. Always asking for my advice. I hope u make it dude. Remember no porn = no relapse. @Phibz it was no hard feelings for me either bro. We're in this together. Good luck. @joienMD you are one determined dude! I know you'll reach ur goal! @Chef Boy keep going strong over in the uk dude. @TakingTheSteps hope u reach ur goal. And do me a favor. Take down that 'women suffer from porn too' ad lol it's a trigger hahahaha! @Gladiatori keep it real over in Toronto dude. I'm sure you'll find d a girl right for u. Never give up. @Crispy21 good luck to u man. Thanks for liking all my status updates! @Lazarus Shuttlesworth hahahaha, ur a funny dude. I hope u reach ur goal. Thanks for not getting super mad at me when I posted controversial stuff. @NoBrainer ur a good mod @alexander I never really knew/talked to u but I wanna thank u for NoFap and this website. I really owe u my life and sanity. I don't know where I would be with rebooting and NoFap, YBOP. Thanks alot. Good luck. Thanks everyone again. It's been a pleasure rebooted with you.
Good luck homie. And ya but for real when i come on this site i just do it to ask questions and to figure shit out. I dont do it to meet people and make friends so i never met the real you and you never met the real me. But good luck in the future man!
It is good of you to say a nice goodbye @Golgo 13. Most just go and it can leave the rest feeling a bit unappreciated for the time and effort invested in them. So, those personal messages are a nice way to do it. You are a very grounded person. It doesn't surprise me to know that you never fell into the trap that doing the NoFap challenge would address all of the issues in your life. I am confident that your time here has been life-changing. Re: other areas, take heart from the hard-earned achievement you have had doing this. You CAN change - if you really want it. Just ask yourself: Do I want to be a better man? I hope you decide you are worth the effort to keep on growing and changing. Good luck man - IGY
Hi there Golgo13. I am relatively new here & have not spoken to you before on this forum. Reading your parting words, I'm wondering if now is a good time for you to be closing your account & leaving the NoFap community. From what you say, you seem in quite a dark place, believing yourself to be a dark, nasty person or something. 119 days is fantastic, but I reached over 200 days & out of the blue, had a relapse. You are your own person & if you're intent on leaving, then that's obviously your choice & everyone here will wish you a fantastic future. You describe two roads & that demons are dragging you along the path towards evil. Ultimately that is your choice. Demons are capable of no more than inclinations & temptations - how we react from a position of free choice is what matters. I must be honest - your parting words sound to me like someone heading into the darkness, where staying free from PMO may well become very difficult. Whatever you choose, I wish you everything of the best. T22.
Good luck Golgo13. Very smart move on your part. After a certain amount of time and you successfully weed off this from your life you have to put everything behind including any and all NoFap related websites and literature. From then on is when you are truly free and liberated.
thank you bro, and it's all love. If/when you get urges you already know which website has your back.
Hey @Golgo 13 Just found this thread. You are a good person in spite of what you write about yourself. You helped others while in here. Remember that. Sometimes we think shit about us that does not match reality. I'm glad my path crossed with yours. You made me laugh in a way I had almost forgotten. And I was not laughing at you. You know what I mean Sometimes we just have that positive unintended consequences on others. Know that you will be missed. I understand the reasons why you are leaving. I was leaving too but I came back. Not ready to leave yet Anyway I wish you the best dear brother. Stay happy[Check]
@Golgo 13 Dude, I won't hold you back. Whatever your decision is, I 100% support it. In many ways we are very similar and our self reflection of ourselves is the same and for me that's been nice to know I'm not the only person on this earth who feels the way I feel. Good luck to you dude, be safe and enjoy life. It's been nice knowing you, even for this brief time We'll be here if ever you need a shoulder to lean on again. Peace dude.
lol I wasn't on the list, but I hope things work out well for ya. Hopefully this place helped. Take care, man.
Never chatted much but best of luck man, you are not an evil person, evil people never try to change therefore youre not one of them, either way Peace, go find happiness!
I'm curious why you think you're an inherently bad person. I would like to think you're a person who has done things he has regretted or has had negative consequences for himself or others. But that doesn't necessarily make you a bad person.
