Day 19 (fantasy-less MO on day 8) Hello guys! Woke up with morning wood. Amost MOed but then watched the famous Noah talk and gained hope and decided not to. Also I discovered that the common myth that sperm must be released in some ways is actually false: it can reabsorbed in the body. Talk to you soon. Alfio. P.S. Girls are becoming more and more visually appealing.
I just decided to MO cause little pains (maybe "blue balls"?) and other wierd sensations (nothing alarming) in the prostate area were going on. So in a non-horny moment I started stroking my penis and after 6-7 minutes I was ejaculating. HOW I HANDLE PHYSIOLOGICAL RELEASES (I suggest doing them only if you feel disciplined enough to be able to control your sexual behavior): -I only do them when they're physiologically necessary, not to boost the mood or any other reason -I do it in a moment of the day when i don't feel horny or tempted to porn, so the fantasizing is not rewarded by orgasm -I do it with an empty mind, no thoughts and just focus on raw physical sensations -I do it in a standing position (PUA James Marshall talks about the benefits of masturbating in a standing position in a video) I will try to MO after longer and longer periods of time. I MOed on day8, I MOed again on day 19 (today) after 11 days so next MO should not be before day 30. I will experiment with this "soft" way of rebooting and let you know how it goes. P.S. right now after MOing I feel an itch in the penis calling me to orgasm again.
DAY 20 (MO day 8,19) After yesterday's MO I've been having some chaser effect but very subtle. Everything else is going well.
It's funny that you say this I was in my 30th day today.. And I caved an PMO but it wasn't so much that I wanted P it was more that I was trying to release some stress that I had. Maybe looking back now I should have just MO. But I noticed an increase in strength of my E it felt good to see that since I kinda been suffering of ED gave me more motivation to continue this! I'm officially on Day 1 and the last day I watch porn ! I just realized I don't need it! And with all these benefits of quitting I'm determined to do 90 day of no MO! Just thought to share my thoughts ! Good luck!
Thank you for the reply corona! I know that my diary is quite boring cause Im not good at writing so Im happy somebody read it. I think that hard mode is too intense, but it does pay the benefits. It is the fastest way to reboot. Im saying this because I noticed a very slight coming back of fantasies in the past days after MOing. That's probably because the "pure masturbation" and the "fantasy" have always been linked so one would call back the other. Anyway I wanna experiment with this NoFap with releases once in a while cause I feel disciplined enough not to fall back into binging and porn. Im already seeing a lot of benefits (e.g. the other day I could get a boner while making out with a girl and was really enjoying the thing, and a month ago I couldnt enjoy it with a hotter girl. That shows my appreciation for small things has grown up incredibly). Also I feel the "flatline" effect will not be there with this soft recovery with releases. But who knows. DAY 24 No fapping and no fantasizing seems to have become my natural state. I am more stable in this NoFap-zone and will never ever go back. Too many benefits.
Its so encouraging to read ur post. I logged in for the first time today and went through your daily progress. I wish I can do the same. PMO has virtually ruined my life. I am desperate to get over it. In the past 2 months, I have barely lasted 2-3 days without PMO, and then relapsed multiple times. Its virtually impossible to hold back once the mind gets racing. I work alone from home and have virtually unrestricted access to the net. Help me with how to control the urges and not log onto porn all day. So desperate to quit.
Male1221 thanks for reading! I struggled also for a couple of years...trying to keep always two/three days between PMO etc. Of course it didn't work. What pushed me seriously towards NoFap was a few episodes of ED (they were probably anxiety-based but porn played its role for sure) and escalating to weirder and weirder porn genres. And then one day it happened, I simply decided I was gonna go for it. I committed. I'm not gonna touch my dick for 30 days. Just like you, the first week my mind would start racing once in a while, and I couldn't stop myself from searching for porn-related material, get huge long erections with a lot of tension in the body and mental confusion. This went on for a few days. I would get very very aroused for long time but I wouldn't touch myself. After awhile, I learned that stimulation with stories/pictures just got me feeling worse (mental confusion and tension and pain) and I was determined not to touch myself so I tried to avoid sexual thinking from happening. Now the fantasizing is weaker and weaker and the healthy part of the brain is much stronger so it can keep everything under control and I almost never fantasize. Anyway my suggestion to control urges would be: don't control them. Let them be. But commit not to touch your dick for 10 days. Look all the porn you want, until you become so sick that you start fainting and choose to stop. After a few days your brain will associate the urge with negative things (pain in balls, tension, confusion) and not with good things (orgasm) and it will naturally stop most urges from taking control of your mind. Also just sitting in silence for 20 minutes a day helps creating some kind of "awareness around thoughts" that will often "catch" the urge-thoughts in action. If motivation is little, just give it a try, say 20 days. You will see the benefits with your own eyes and your motivation will grow stronger! For example, I started this topic as a 30day challenge but now I've decided that Im gonna quit forever because I've experienced a tiny bit of benefits. Anyway this is how it's working for me but your brain and history is different so don't take it seriously. Also visit YourBrainOnPorn if you haven't already and take a look at Elliot's video "discipline is greater than motivation"
DAY 25 (MO on 8/19) As usual after a week of non-ejaculating Im starting hornier and hornier. But that's ok and everything is under control.
"As usual after a week of non-ejaculating Im starting hornier and hornier." I can empathize. It's been 7 days myself and my body is just going nuts, pardon the pun. I guess I'm having a bit of trouble keeping the fantasy out too, but I'm focusing it towards people IRL and not unrealistic videos.
Yesterday I was guilty of fantasizing and reading some "juicy stuff" on the internet for about 15 minutes. The tension and confusion told me to stop once again! DAY 26 (MO on 8 and 19) Im feeling horny today as well but Im managing to stay away from fantasizing. It's hard but I'll make it. Im really looking forward to next MO on day30.
I was surfing the net again for stories and "horny stuff". The thing is there is no "trespassing line" so I find my self looking for "this tiny thing" "this tiny peak" etc. and it looks like Im not doing anything. Also I noticed that when I get that "feel good" sensation I can easily stop my curiosity. What Im looking for when I do "quick peaks" then is just a sense of feeling good, dopamine. I can as well get that in other ways (music, meditation, some snacks) so I want to make an oath with myself: OATH (valid from day 26 to day 50): whenever I find myself fantasizing or in need of that "boost" I WILL NOT use any sexual-related chats/stories/pictures for such purpose. In such cases, I will replace the "arousal boost" with something funny or pleasant like music, meditation, food etc. This is my oath and I will not go against it.
DAY 27 (MO on 8 and 19) My weirdest fantasies are running wild in my head. The urge to use internet is strong, but unfortunately I made an oath with myself so Im gonna have to wait until day 50 for next access to internet for porn material. I have "mind-fog" again and it increases with arousal. Fortunately another 3 days and I will be allowed to have another release. I can make it!
DAY 0 I relapsed. Got horny at erotic stories and it took me 4 strokes to come (instead of the 6 minutes it took me without porn). It's ok. I forgive myself. And I wanna learn from my mistake. I appeciated my results. But now I wanna stop for good. No more erotic stories, no more fantasizing, no more masturbation if it's not seriously needed by the organism. I tried fighting the old habits, but in the end it didn't work. My new approach will be totally different, cause everybody knows that "what you resist, will persist!". Socrates said: "The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new." That's the way. To quit this addiction I need to reconstruct my entire life. Instead of fighting the fantasies away, I will be using my energy in drawing myself towards something else. These are the rules for my new Journey towards the Light: 1) At least 30 minutes of exercise, exercise, EXERCISE! Every, single, day! No matter what! 2) No more indoor life. I'll be spending all my days outdoor, I will study outside, I will relax outside and all my activities I will do outside (except for showering and sleeping). I have legs so walking back and forth from my house is no problem if needed. Thank you for your support and remember: failure is the best lesson that leads to success. I'm happy I made a mistake so I can learn from it. What I've learned from my mistake is that if you keep taking "quick peaks" you will, eventually (might be a week or a year) relapse. Talk to you soon. Alfio P.S. I will write less and less cause I wanna be so busy I will forget about this whole thing.
Relapsed again and now I'm on day 2. Perceived an increase of anxiety and insecurities (less confidence)
DAY 6 I've become dependent on the confidence and high libido of NoFap. I like it too much and it's motivating me a lot. Life is so much more fun when NoFap.
Wow I appreciate your attempt to remove your sedentary lifestyle completely by spending all of your days outdoor. I think it is going to help a lot in morphing you into a better person as a whole. Although I think for most people it's not possible to spend all the time outdoor, taking breaks from standing every 45 mins should reduce the harmful effects of being sedentary. Exercising everyday? That's a lot of determination but remember this our body needs rest. Even the top athletes will not exercise everyday. I suggest exercising 5-6 days a week and give your body 1-2 days to rest. Otherwise if you are too stretched out, a relapse may come with it.
Obviously Im not exercising everyday but almost ahahha Here I found an interesting article on how to regain physical sensitivity and arousal during reboot: http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/learning-art-‘mindful’-masturbation-uk-therapist-paula-hall It is said that this kind of masturbation (except for the first weeks where it can cause binging) if done properly, can actually speed up the process by rewiring the brain to crave touch rather than porn.
Relapsed again (note: I don't count P or rare MO as relapsing). Last two weeks I have done some P viewing as well. And yesterday, coming back home drunk, feeling without responsibility "because Im drunk" I decided to PMO. Felt strongly tempted to PMO again this morning but managed to stay out of it. DAY 1 for the third time
I've been experiencing some kind of flatlining in the past days....but maybe it's too early to call it like that and it'probably due to an overall sickness (cold, cough etc) Im having
