Day 1 - Been doing this for a long, long time and was wondering would I ever be able to kick the habit. Tried everything over the years and nothing worked. Lasted a week once and couldn't handle the pressure of the strange new world I found there so fell off the wagon worse than ever. Often wondered if there was an event at the Olympics for this, I'd be in with a chance of a podium finish at least, if not the gold medal. Read about this site the other night in a men's health magazine, checked it out last night and couldn't believe it. All you guys talking openly about my best kept secret. The thing that's been tearing me apart. Too much for me last night so off I went to pornland for another fix of nothingness. Same ol, same ol. Joined up tonight, 23 hours clean.
Welcome to NoFap Every one here feels the same way.Since I started my journal it is like a weight has been lifted .No matter how I tried the secret itself was to much.So I choose the least 'worst' option and to my surprise it made a big difference.So i wish you the best of luck.Belive that you can do it.
Yeah when I first got here I was surprised by everyone talking freely about what I always hid and was ashamed of. Never in my life had I discussed masturbation and porn and all that (unless in the bedroom) It's kind of freeing to have a place to come to where you can express yourself freely no matter what. You can get through this. I am looking forward to following your progress. Good luck to you!
Day 2 - made it through. Feeling a bit twitchy but managed not to dwell on any of the P thoughts that came up during the day. Getting to bed too late is always a trigger to turn on the computer/ TV etc and go looking for "excitement". Wondering if this is going to be the hardest thing I've ever done, but keeping in the day/ hour/ half hour/ 5 minutes/ 1 minute. Serenity prayer helps.
Day 3 - got to keep reminding myself this is the most important thing I have going on at the moment. Keeping away from the TV, YouTube and purposeless Internet. Really grateful to this site and all the other Fapstronauts. Next up will be the cold shower discipline.
I've heard about the cold showers being good for you..but I'm not so sure I could do it. Let me know how it goes.
Day 4 and the aggression is building up. First cold shower today - well actually, it was a hot shower but then turned off the hot and turned up the cold. Worked a treat after the first 20 seconds or so. Think I managed a minute. Pigged out on high sugar food and now sitting around watching stuff on the Internet. Not P. Over tired. Know what would take the pressure off but not going there. Time to go to bed and hopefully in the morning will have 4 days clean.
Day 5 - Working away, doing my thing. Don't want to look over my shoulder too much. Keeping the thinking straight and when I catch myself going off on a P tangent, close it down asap. At night, starting to feel there's something missing. Good. That's how I want to keep it. Missing. Until such time as it's not there anymore, lurking in the background.
Day 6 - Went to the gym tonight, beating the crap out of myself. Tumultuous feelings all over the place. Don't even know where to start to begin, only to keep away from the PMO just for tonight. I'm reading it gets better after 90 days....ha, ha, ha...have to laugh. Gallows humour no doubt. Man, the idea of 90 days seems like an eternity. Seven hours to dawn and then I have another day clean. DV.
Day 7 - this is great! Don't want to get complacent. Enjoying an energy and awareness of things that feels wonderful.
