only one reason.....that u have to do it,u have no other way.Beat it or get Beaten. I don't know if u don't do this now how much far u push.....an hour.....a day or an year .....how much far u will go away from ur goal,ur life,ur love, or anything if u don't do it NOW.
What good has it ever done for you? Get rid mate. you don't need it, and having it there will only make things tougher. Years ago I tried to quit smoking, but kept an ashtray, just in case. Well I kept relapsing. Not until I binned the ashtray was I successful in stopping smoking.
Haha! I had exactly the same thing a few weeks ago! It was such a difficult decision, but once I did it it made NoFap sooooo much easier. My mind was fully committed, instead of being like 'well I might want to fap again to this in the future' it was like 'I am going to be a bossman forever!' DO ITTTTTT.
Why not? You've hoarded that shit over the years, because maybe 'you'll need it one day'. You don't need it mate. You never do. You never watch it, you only go to the internet to find the stuff you like. But those days are over. Now quit the whining and attention whoring and do it.
What are the best programs for internet filtering? Preferably something permanent, that I can't simply "unlock" with a mere password once the temptation arises. I'm really struggling with deleting this, as it took a lot of time & work to build up such a perfectly compiled collection, complete with categories, types, and sub-folders of all kinds. It almost seems futile to delete considering I'll still have direct access to the internet. I've been watching porn for 18 years, and I'd like to say that I've been addicted for about the same amount of time. However, this is a direct conflict with my newborn faith in God, and it feels wrong to simply keep it on my computer as a synthetic 'security blanket'. While I haven't had the urge to masturbate in a few days, I'm 100% certain that the time will arise, and keeping this on my computer and/or persistent access will only increase that urge. I know a lot of people hate to hear the gospel, but faith in God helps tenfold with these urges. It's almost as if I've lost interest altogether, and the mere thought of it disgusts me. I need to completely disable myself from accessing it, as temptation is a beast within itself. I know this will be tough, as I'm currently single. And while I'm 10 months sober (today) from a severe pill addiction of nine years, I now realize that I need to treat this much like I treated that. I never once considered porn a true, physical and psychological addiction that alters your neurotransmitters, but it is. If we weren't living in such a dark, dilluted time, there would be more awareness of it. It astounds me how utterly clueless most westernized parents are, but I'll save that for another day. My personal belief is that we'll continue to struggle until we truly believe in God and put all of our faith in Him, and literally cry out for divine intervention, admitting that we are 100% powerless to defeat such a demon on our own account. Determination - Success Emotional recovery - In progress Spiritual recovery - In progress Physical recovery - Pending - (now might be the most beneficial time to begin physically straining my body in order to help regulate my neurotransmitters?) I like the forums here, though. Success stories give me hope, and support during recovery is crucial. I'm changing my entire life, and I'm getting rid of demons, slowly, one at a time. tl;dr What are the most effective internet-filtering programs? Anyone else suffering from drug addiction? How do you compare the two? Any other Christians suffering? What gives you strength? Anyone else single? How to cope with the lonliness aspect that PMO quickly provided? Anyone else start exercising? Primary benefit? Please feel free to ask me any question you may have, as well. Take it to PM if you prefer. Thanks again, love the people here already.
You're struggling with one thing now - deleting your stash. In a few hours/days, you'll struggle with strong urges. Your determination will be enormously tested. Do you still want to be struggling with deleting your stash then? Can you take on two enemies at the same time? Bravo for putting so much effort into organizing all your trophies. I suppose it feels like a trusted friend in a weird way. But you are strong now. Get it over with. Breathe fresh air. Off with those shackles! Don't thwart your recovery right from the start.
Yeah, why bother throwing out this heroin I have in my desk drawer, since I can always buy more? I don't mean to be too harsh, but it sounds to me like you're trying very hard to rationalize not doing what you know you should do. Get rid of your stash. Install the blocking software. Develop a plan for avoiding avoidable triggers. Develop a plan for dealing with unavoidable triggers. Set a goal, create a counter and get to work. We're all here to support you, but you have to do the work.
Porn is a slow acting drug. It wont kill you today, tomorrow, or even months from now. But one day, your body will be alive, but your soul will be dead. Actually before that, your dick will be dead. You are a man, you conquer. You do not get conquered. So my one line: Do you wanna be a pussy all your life, and hand over your balls to porn, OR do you want to grab your life by its balls and guide it where you want it to go?
Which blocking software, specifically? The program must be a permanent solution. That means no possible password recovery. Permanent 'safe-search' on Google and other search engines. Sex ads. Even facebook garbage and other social networking platforms, especially Tumblr. Youtube is a major one. etc etc etc etc etc etc etc etc.
effective filtering programs? there is only one effective filtering - honesty to yourself! do you want to quit pornaddiction? simple question - yes or no??? if no why keeping this shit on your computer. i did two times 90 days hardmode so far. relapsed two times and started again every time. there is no turning back for me. i will win this fight - no doubt! set yourself a goal and count the damn days - yes count them like a lunatic. 30 days is a good goal for the start. this nofap-thing depends on your willpower! how hard can you be to yourself??? how hard can you fight against your desire? if we want to win this fight we have to stop blubbering like little boys. with every clean/sober day passing by i can see what porn did to me - how it isolated me from living. how it destroyed love and friendship in my life.
