Got addicted at a young age and progressed to child porn. when i was in my early 20s was just into teens/school uniforms but at my darkest was fapping to preteens being fucked (mostly anal) and facialized. all very bad and horrible for the victims. anyway got arrested, prosecuted nearly went to jail. lost my wife my house, job, everything. got some mates who are still in touch but none that live close by. my life used to be my job and socializing with collegaues. now inwork in a different type of role out of the city centre and its very different. i am lucky that my prosecution was never in the press or known locally. see my kids most nights but my wife doesnt want me back home. we're just coming out of 2 years being on social service watch list and I couldnt live with them. now its been so long my wife doesnt want me back. i ache for her physically and the lust for her after 1 year or no sex is like nothing ive ever known. now determined not to fap to release the pressure because it just makes me depressed more. on Day 6 though and feel like my balls are going to explode....my cock is permanently semi erect and twitching to be touched. this is difficult!
I've tried to be intimate with two women over the last few months and couldn't get up at all, it was incredibly embarrassing. I'm so used to the stimulation from porn that real life isn't as exciting to my brain. I know it has affected my past relationships and will continue to affect my future ones if I don't stop now. 2 days in to my reboot, wish me luck
The biggest problem is the stealing of my productivity. If I could take all the time that I spent pursuing and viewing porn, and used that time for learning about investing money I would be a millionaire. Instead I have a broken brain that's addicted to porn, not a very good trade-off.
Good luck bro, . there is a lot of info in the site that is gonna help you to overcome your addiction, and when you feel that you are going to fall just remember the bad time you had with that girls.
thats true men...its not only the damaging efects of porn,but the wasting of time and vital energy. ... i used to view porn before going to sleep until early morning, the next day i was all the day in "zombie mode" beeing mediocre in my job
oasis, hang in there...no matter what history, the guys on this site can provide insight, support and success stories. stay tuned daily for maximum benefit.
@oasisband909 just turn the page and focus on the benefits of a new life without Porn , the first week is hard, you can do it, i recomend you the book "the brain that changes itself"....good info about how brain plasticity can help to overcome addictions
thanks for the messages guys. last night and today is difficult - bif fight with my wife last night she says she doesn't want a life with me and has to keep her distance. i am there begging for her to reconsider and to try and feel the crazy love for me she used to. just apologising and asking not to hate me. got home and looked at porn (legal) but didnt masterbate at all. today the pain is unbearable am practically crying here at my desk and I cant concentrate; on top of that is my cock and sexual brain just telling me find a girl to fuck asap to satisfy lust and try and get over my wife. I have been on tinder for the first time and was also looking at escorts where i live (only £100!) where i could get porn style sex tonight if i wanted. so so tempting. im determined not to spunk though - it has been one week now. dont think ever been this long in my life and want to see what happens after 2 & 3 weeks.
In the darkest point, I was about to hire a prostitute, then I found this forum and literally, it saved my life!
what i hate is how i sometimes see resemblence between an "actress" and a girl i know, i feel it s so disrespectful, especial since i feel pleasure in imagining my self with the person through the porn movie, it s sick, i feel like a pervert and it doesn t stop me from continuing
I was going to say the same thing! I've been addicted to naked young women online since I was 14 years old and since then, I've discovered NoFap on Reddit in early 2016 but still masturbating & relapsing over and over again and again every each day and week. I've blocked alot, alot, alot of adult sites on my BlockSite on Google it is still bothering my head every time I get horny and think of women. Of course, it caused me anxiety and being a bit reckless than ever. What's the big problem that porn had caused in my life is porn affects my hobbies I've been losing interest with/in. I lose interest with reading novels and comics, a little of music and Disney movies because of porno, that's how it changed my life. I still couldn't believe what I just did to this day, which is shameful.
it happend to me, i started to lose interest in activities that i usually enjoyed. then i read in some article that the reason is because porn overstimulate the brain so you just get used to that kind of arousal. any other hobbie or activity became boring
My biggest issue is the inability to find any form of intimacy. I'm not solely talking about girlfriend/boyfriend relationships, I'm talking about everyone; even my family and friends. I'm numb and I feel so unattached to the rest of the world. This is not to say that I don't care that I feel this way; I completely do care, but I lacked the drive to kill my addiction. Ever since I started this group, I've finally took the steps to get fulfillment in life. Today is the ending of day #1 of no pmo for me. I'm excited and fearful of what lies ahead, but I'm not looking back.
The squandering of the many hours of time (cumulatively totaling numerous days of my life by now) that I could have otherwise used to enjoy the meaningful things in life, learn new things, develop closer relationships with the real people in my life, and appreciate the beauty of reality.
OVerall, it's the loss of lifetime. Lack of social contacts, many unfinished projects, always living "on the edge" instead of fully immersing into life. On the positive side, I feel like I have always challenged myself and never gave up. I'm 44, and overall, I feel very good and content; lately I grew a lot. Always look forward !
I'm offended by this. Putting you on the #blockwagon along with that motherfucker @Fake Till You Become. (I'm just kidding.)