Fapstronauts I will be honest... I thought this moment would be a lot more sentimental for me. Admittedly my sobriety has been the bedrock that I have been able to build all my other success on top of. The problem is, pornography is just not a part of my life anymore. Yes. I do keep the date on my calendar, and in giant florescent letters in my signature, as a constant reminder of the dark years. But for me (and for you) the page will eventually get turned. This monster that has dominated so much of your life will soon be dust in the wind. I promise. My only hope is that everyone's 2 year post will be as equally boring as this one. Because if so, porn is dead to you. And that is what we're all here for, am I right? Keep your eyes on the prize boys. Many say "you CAN do this". We need to start saying, "you WILL do this". There is no option anymore guys. Now is the time. -None
Man … thank you soo much for sharing this!!! I’ve been fighting PMO for a long time and only recently found this site…. I got to Day 9 relapsed, then got to DAY 19 but relapsed on Friday… Your words have inspired my soo much, I’m holding back the tears… I want that life you have , I want to be happy , have a life full of joy , passion and love of life… I need to but PMO finally once and for all in my past …. Building again from Day 1 and I look forward to when I post my 2-year free of PMO post … Thank you.
Awesome man. You are a beacon of hope and inspiration for all of us. And, yes I am sincerely considering to write a success story as boring as it can be. May be that could become my new success story.
Insightful post. I think just by the nature of the addiction, our levels of awareness will fluctuate through recovery. We see a lot of rebooters here and people stuck in the cycle of intermittent relapse of a few days or a few weeks. I have been one of them myself for the last 10 months. Necessarily we will have need to have more awareness of the urges, our triggers, our emotions, etc. early on since we are still very close to the addiction and the pathways are still strong. Then, as time goes on it does fade in large part as it should. If we are successful abstaining long enough we build lives and coping mechanisms that don't have anything to do with PMO. It just becomes something you don't do and loses a lot of it's presence in day to day living. That's a great success! However, there is a note of caution always required! If we become too unaware we can fall prey to the same causes that got us to the initial PMO addiction in the first place. I can't remember the exact length of my longest streak, but I think I blew it just before hitting the two year mark. I got a little too comfortable and didn't respect the fact that I could relapse as a serious possibility anymore. I was happy to think I was behind the issue, hopefully forever. The overconfidence was a large part of my downfall I think. It didn't take a single thought, or a single week to end up relapsing. But eventually the hold of sexual urges and thoughts felt so weak on me that I began to make small compromises.. and developed a lack of concern being exposed to mildly triggering content on a regular basis. Long story short this eroded me over time and I think was a large part of my eventual relapse. So I don't really know what to make of the experience. It's a blurry line between getting your mind and your life focused off PMO in large part over time, which is good. But not taking that too far and completely ignoring the danger there and becoming overconfident. Hard to stay in the sweet spot.