Day 6 I had minor urges. Honestly, I still have one while I am writing this post This is not the sexual thing, this is pm thing, its dopamine. Those urges are not real. However, I admit that I am addicted and I have to make the arrangements according to it.
92 days my brothers Here´s a very important excerpt from "rebooting as the best remedy". have a nice day my brothers. love you all "Many people ask the question of whether asceticism is harmful. Rookies especially would ask this question. My answer is the asceticism is harmless, if it is harmful then wouldn’t that mean all monks are unhealthy? The reality is that many monks live up to 100 years and beyond. Master Hsu Yun lived 120 years, Master Benhuan reached the age of 106 years, in the Buddhist school, there are many cases of longevity. Therefore, the notion that asceticism is harmful to the body is sheer nonsense. There is only one scenario that would make asceticism harmful, and that is when the cultivation of heart/mind is inadequate and sexual fantasizing occurs daily with the urge to masturbate but one does not dare to act upon it, the continuous restrainment in this manner would possibly give rise to problems. If the cultivation is adequate then self-restraint is harmless. I would like to add a point and that is the harmfulness of sexual fantasizing. Many rookies would ask: if fantasizing without masturbation count as breaking the reboot and whether or not it’s harmful? Actually, sexual fantasizing seriously depletes the body, even more serious than masturbation itself. This is clearly treated in Tradicional Chinese Medicine. Many brothers discover that their spirit/manner is depressed after looking themselves in the mirror following sexual fantasies. In TCM this is called: essence leaves when the mind wanders. As long as we engage in sexual fantasization, essence will automatically leave us. Masturbation is the visible form of depletion while sexual fantasization is the invisible form, the invisible being the more serious form. Hopefully all brothers would deeply recognize what has been said and increase their rebooting studies, intensify the heart/mind cultivation and cut out all sexual fantasies; cut out the thought once it has arisen, an arisen thought should not be followed, the mind being immediately aware of new thoughts and the ceasing of the thought once the mind is aware of it."
Day 258! These last days not in a good mood really, but it's a phase, it will pass hopefully. Keep fighting brothers, the good days but also the bad ones...
Day 5: Overslept and the weather here is crummy. Still going to try and make this day a good one though.
Day 31 down! Urges are rising again, some flashbacks of porn, made it difficult to focus... Anyway, I try this month to cut my sugar intake down to zero. I want to see in what way my mind and body change.
Day 7 Nothing unusual for today. No major urges. I just keep saying myself that all those urges are not real. One day at a time! Lets rank up! I am an uruk hai now!!!
Sorry, been a while since I posted. On 40 days today! Elves for the win! It's been going well, I've actually been to busy to think about porn much. Turning my life around!