Have made 5 attempts so far to kick this addiction. After attempt no 5 I decided to take a break with a plan that I would occasionally fap. Felt in control of myself to do this. I got this very wrong and am now fapping most days and porn images are constantly in my mind and I'm buzzing from dopamine. So today is my new day 1 but it's going to be far tougher than when I joined nofap several months ago. Cold turkey for a while. Not looking forward to this. For others. Learn from me. Porn sucks you in again if you give it an inch.
For many relapse is part of recovery. Don't be too hard on yourself. You have had long streaks before. Recommit, see if you can figure out something different and try to learn from each cycle.
As I can see from your counter you went for a good streak before fapping again. Don't consider that you're back to Day 1. You're still rebooting, even though you failed a little bit. The real error and relapse would be to fail once a week - there would be no progress in your brain then, or not enough. But if you relapse once a month it's still getting better and better for your brain, even though it would be better to go full 90+ days without relapsing.
Thanks for the support. Will really only know in 2 weeks time if it feels like starting all over again. Dreading the terrible urges that will come soon.
4 days in and it definitely isn't easy. But it is easier than when i first joined nofap. No desire to look at porn but a huge desire to MO. Strange feeling. Like magnetic forces through my entire body pulling me. I'm feeling confident this time though. Every challenge whether successful or not has to help - that's the conclusion I'm coming to.
