TheDanilux

Hello! I'm TheDanilux, but you can also call me Daniel. I'm 17 and I love my life, some friends, a nice family, everything is ok. There's some problems I'm facing growing up, but working costantly to fix them. One of those is Porn addiction. I've been on porn for over 5 years, fapping sometimes a lot like ALL the day with 7 times straight (rare), and sometimes 1 time only or two (most common). Honestly my life wasn't conditioned so much on all of these years: doing great at school, have friends, living my life at my best. But when I grow up, I just started see the consequences of that: lack of motivation, energy, a lot of hot on the body, and sometimes a sense of guilt on the people (maybe of these that you know on real life) that I used for masturbating, and most important, your thoughts to the people you see after you fapped. The last thing was the real problem (or the most important for me), because i was conditioned to see parts of a body a motivation to add that image on the library for fap on the night. Everything I was looking my brain takes a "photo" and added it to the queue of my porn library, and continue to search on all the body I saw. Apart from this, other problems that affected my life was: incredible fog when i get up from bed or from the chair, lack of energy for school and gym (not only), sometimes pain on the parts of my body (my genitals for example) and a lot of time used in a useless way. Now you will see all of the progress and relapse I did until today.

(I thing was on the christmas period, don't remember the date)
So one day, i stopped from masturbating and porn just because i was considering an adolescence thing. I was doing great with no problems until i searched up things about masturbation, and saw that it was good to do it, so i relapsed. The problem here is that I wasn't aware that the porn was the problem, so I used it. After that, i searched about porn and finally discover that is the problem of everything. I searched on sites, videos, posts, everything just to be sure and convincing my brain that i was in an addiction. So I stopped again (30/12/2022) with no problems, until I relapsed again in bed (01/01/2023). I tried to stop again making a streak of 1 week and did it great, but some pics popped up randomly and yeah you know the end (06/01/2023). So i asked to me "If i like it so much, i love to do it and to see it... Why I cant do a pause of that". Here i started to take this thing more seriously, but before start for forever, I did a free day that i can fap everytime for all the day, so i did it on the night until the last minute i had for the end of the day and going to sleep, just a goodbye to that world for forever (07/01/2023). Tomorrow I got some problems on the part of my body that I used for 5 years costantly, being more secure that it was the problem. Doing really nice for two weeks (the first day I started i had an incredible urge to re-do it, but i didn't ), and started finally to see the progress: better sleep, a lot of motivation and engery, no more lacks of strength of my body and of my brain, my thoughts are returning to the default state with no "pic memory for fap" slot on my brain anymore, no urge to refap (especially with no porn) and living my life better. One day i read a story of a nofap user that masturbate only one time after 40 days to see the difference and it was 100 times better than porn, so I tried that after 14 days with all the progress done and wow! It's real, no lack of energy, no distorted thoughts, continuing to have all the progress done.. but rules are rules, so my counter resets (23/01/2023). After two days, unfortunately, i relapse for a pic so ""nice"" that I tried to resist, but i couldn't, so here I am, truly resetting my counter (25/01/2023) but it's not the problem, the problem is that now I'm starting to see again the lack of energy and a distorted thoughts, and the motivation is ok because I'm keeping it, else it can be the same as the energy. Now i want to re-do it a lot, but if I'm going to fap again just one more time than the official relapse I did, I'm 90% sure that all of the work is going to be more hard, a lot hard than ever. So no, i will not enter again on the game. Yes I lost, but this is today, not all of my life. Now I'm going to the gym with the lack of energy of the relapse i did 2 hours ago, hope I will do great like with the energy i got on that two weeks. On the gym I was a lion! This because i kept my motivation to the maximus and gained all of the energy back! I truly want to maintain this power, so from now I start my definitive reboot for all of my life. Back to the game! I relapse 2 weeks ago (25/02/2023) but without porn, so this is a good thing, and asking to me "If i know something is making worse my life, then why i make always the same mistakes?". So today, after a heavy leg day, i've totally lost interest on porn! And i'm not stimulated randomly or else anymore! I was bored some minutes ago, and even if I think about it as a choice of escaping I don't want to do that anyway. Making me more tired, depressed, destroying my dopamine levels and deleting all of my productivity for a 20 minutes of "pleasure"? Because is fake, even music makes me more motivated and without any interruptions (you will like it more when you start quitting porn). And the most beautiful things is that you don't have ANY urges anymore, any. And you will start to not be stimulated from the screen, you will know the difference between images on a display and real life (ah yes, real life doesn't mean that you will start to be stimulated on real boobies or else, i mean yea you will always see it, but with a different eyes, a more clean eyes, without any sex urges). Oh yeah another thing, you remember when I said that i had a "fap pics" memory on my brain? Now, even if I try to remember my old saves, i can't, and this is beautiful! And new memories about it aren't created anymore, so today, even if i see some old stimulation right at the direction of my eyes, I don't even pay attention to it! I can't brake anymore, I'm going more fast everyday, for forever. So from doing 2 week streaks, i reached streaks of 30 and 60 days! I relapsed some times, specifically on march, may, at the end of july and in the half of august. On my last relapse, I started to thinking about my future me and not anymore my actual me. I started to see my future with open eyes, the day I'm going to have a nice girl, the day I'm going to work, the day I'm going to be more powerful on the gym, on the school, on the university, the day I'm going to have a family. And after that I couldn't put porn in any day, ANY, like there will be zero space for it.

So here i am today, 10 december 2023, and I got a gorgeous streak of 118 days, and I'm proud of that. I didn't fell the urge to get into the porn again, ZERO, and the benefits are always more than before. For example, you can do EVERYTHING with your masculine gun, if you don't want it to be activated, it won't fire (before even the air was stimulating my "natural gun"). This is only one of the beneficts, but there are a lot more that I can't list all here, there are too much! By the way, I'm actually in a bad moment of my life with a little of depression and lack of energy, in fact my brain started to reconsider porn as an option, but every time i got the risks of relapsing, I always think "Do what will make grateful your future you" and that got saved me a lot of times recently. So what are you conplaining about? START NOW, you won't regret it, I'm sure about that, trust me!

That's it for now. You are on a situation of relapse? You don't even started to do the nofap thing and still got the porn addiction? You are confused on what to do? I hope i helped you on your questions you got in your mind. If you relapsed (and not only), remember: A bad day, that's it, but not a bad life . See ya and good luck to me and to everyone!

Oh yeah, if you have any questions, fell free to ask. I'm not an expert, but I will try help you with my experience.