I've just securely deleted my entire 280GB go-to porn/nudes/"subs" collection that I've been hoarding for the past 10 years. Yes, I should have done it a while ago but I just couldn't as I somehow justified keeping it "just in case" and that it had "sentimental value". I now feel excited/liberated but also that a hole was left in my life, which I can't wait to fill with more positive and healthier things I guess. Other reasons I deleted it besides for the recovery itself: *Peace of mind: No more risk of anyone using my devices embarrassingly finding it, whether its a friend/partner using my notebook, or someone attempting a recovery later if/when I resell my drive, or even family/friends finding it at a later stage should something happen to me.. I don't want to be remembered that way or for it to be "part of my legacy". Honesty & confidence: If anyone asks (and they will), I can look them straight in the eye without any issues/hesitations/lies and say that I don't have/keep/use it. To be proud of that fact. More time & less hassle: No wasting lots of time/bandwidth downloading, trying to maintain and organize it into nice little folders etc. Free space: Cool! I just scored 280GB of storage. Now: Deleting porn obviously does not magically exorcise this addiction out of me but it's an important success and part of the process and tough times do lie ahead. I intend on never using/hoarding ever again, and I'm preparing for those tough times through this great community, staying busy, using web blockers, etc. If anything, this is only motivating me more to get out there, to better myself, enjoy life, to attract the amazing authentic love and connections that my soul really needs, and to no longer chase it "the easy way".
Major congrats. I did the same some two weeks ago. Yes I know what you mean about being liberated. Like you I have a good deal of extra stash space where I can fill it up with music, workout videos and books instead.
PORNberg. Love it! I'd love to see who has the record for the biggest stash deleted. Mine was over 10TB. Took over an hour to delete!
That's great man! I personally deleted all my stored videos the day I decided to join NoFap and change my life. I still kept some P-subs. Some erotic audio that I can't get myself to delete yet. Sigh... I don' know. I tell myself that some erotic audio might be fine once I reboot and get this thing in order. It's so softcore that it won't do me any harm, if I can keep it balanced. But I don't know, maybe it's just my addicted brain talking. I think I will keep them for time being and see what I feel at later date, they don't tempt me so that's no biggie. But I certainly have no plans watching video ever again, that's for sure! I have to say tho I kinda miss my video stash. Some videos in particular. Most of it no cos it just sat there without me ever watching it again, but those few vids... Anyhow, about THIS I'm sure it's my addicted brain talking 100%. Hah. Anyhow, good job man, congrats! Feels like freedom a little bit, doesn't it? This is a huge step of recovery! Awesome!
That. Imagine dying, and when your family goes through your files to see if you've got a testament, they only find lots and lots of porn... I'm glad you deleted it!
haha I just started this same process. There is way too much to rid of in one night but it feels good to see it getting off my computer. Congratulations!
That's awesome, a definite step in the right direction. I also have done the mass deletion and the canceling of online accounts and it does feel pretty good. Unfortunately I have had this experience more than once because I have always gone back and started again. Here's to this being the last time for both of us! Nom
@Almaviva click on someone else's counter and it will take you to the page to create your own then put that in your signature. Nom
That was muy fear. Just the thought of my mother and sisters looking at my porn collection gave me goosebumps. I remember that I didn't actually delete my collection, my hard drive just broke, that made it a little bit easier.
Thanks guys!! I'm looking back now and I'm not feeling any regrets at all. It's like ending a bad relationship... so hard to do but once you do it you feel much lighter and wonder why you didn't do it sooner. @Ikindaknew Yes! no more PORNBerg ha! @RisingPhoenix77 Thanks! Never giving up! Congrats! Yes.. that's what I've actually been doing @GSarosi and @Celestine ! Nice ... Mine took about 30 hours to delete with the secure deletion and I still wiped my free space after. This was my main reason for doing it actually. It's just no longer who I am. No porn, no bookmarks, no mags lying around, and eventually a clean ISP log.
Okay this was getting long... part 2: @dd85 I get you man... it's a process and scary to just delete it all... it actually took me 3 years to eventually get myself to finally delete it.! @ShotDunyun sometimes we all need a kick in the ass by the universe perhaps. @Almaviva Awesome... have you deleted it yet? You're damn right there, sir! I'll drink to that @Nom De Plume ! Without sounding to "personal developmentey", I don't think the hoarding could happen again for me as the whole idea no longer resonates with person I'm growing into through this whole recovery process. Guys..ask yourself this: (1) What kind of person actually hoards porn? then ask yourself... (2) Are you/do you really want to be that kind of guy? This process itself was enough for me.
@IamMike: It feels very liberating. I hadn't used my personal collection in a while, though, so I don't really miss it. It's been a while since porn bored me because it's so fake, so lately I was using online video chats to masturbate. It's still not the real thing and therefore unsatisfying, unhealthy, and addictive. What is interesting is that I've been eliminating these things little by little during the last three days. My heart of hearts was telling me it was about time to do something drastic about it. First, I deleted my alternate skype account, then I stopped using the video chat website, and then I started my no-PM challenge. Without really planning this, I've been feeling the pull to get out of this addiction. I'm so excited for this journey. How are you feeling?