You Are Not Your Skin

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by M.S.H., Oct 11, 2018.

  1. M.S.H.

    M.S.H. Fapstronaut

    Thursday, October 11, 2018.

    Do I have a success story worth telling? I don't know. . . You be the judge.

    To begin something is to be halfway done with it. And I am having the deuce of a time trying to start this one. The problem is not that I have nothing to say, but that I can't find out how to bring it about!

    Now that I have picked up my pen to write this, I find I must begin someway and that way is by playing some songs (which know all about my sorrows and my passions), and let them be my muse and guide me in this task. . . I will be putting the links in spoilers tab (in case somebody is anxious to unravel my secrets).

    I figure that every success story should have a brief history of the moments which led to the caterpillar turn into a butterfly and therefore here is mine:

    I was introduced to masturbation by my own curiosity at a very young age, I believe I was around 8-9 years old. I just rubbed it occasionally, and it felt good and that was all. All this changed when at the age of 13 my friends introduced me to pornography. It got me hooked. Twice, thrice a day. . . Day after day! Month after month! Time flew by and I remained the same. . . Living a life of shame!

    There you have it. Everything I was up to this time in my life can be summed up in a few words. I was lazy, boring, deceiving, cheating, and destroying my life. Studies; Meh! Sports; Meh! Social Skills; Again Meh! Thought Process; Once Again Meh!

    It's not that I was wholly unconcerned about my situation, in fact I knew I was heading to the precipice, and it is not this situation that is scary. No! what is really scary is the fact that I was willingly throwing my life away! I knew what I was drinking is poison and I still craved it more and more and ever-more.

    Eventually I got tired of everything and decided to join this forum and got a good seven day streak, relapsed, did it again, relapsed again, and the devil retained me in his vice like grip. I just didn't care about myself anymore. I was a piece of debris flowing in the river of life without any purpose or reason. I am not a religious person, but I believe that there's hope in life.

    And my hope came. . . It blasted itself a way inside my closed and dark heart. It barged in and cleared everything dead and decaying inside me, it brought sunshine plus something more with it. . . It brought the single most important thing in this life. . . It brought love. Yes, it may sound like a fairytale to you folks, but is it not my fairytale? . . Yes, it is indeed my very own fairytale!

    I can't put this in words. So many times I have tried, but I fail. . . Words fail. . . It is something divine, and that's the best I can come up with.

    She changed my whole life around in a mere twenty four hours. I wouldn't have believed it myself if I was in some other shoes. But it is real. And it is divine.

    I began my streak on 25th of March, and I will never look back. I have heard so many people say, 'Love Kills Lust'. And I can say that yes it does.

    It's part of the reason that I hesitate with writing a success story. Because I don't think this success is mine. I credit it to her eyes. . . She's the reason behind everything positive in me. Without her, I am darkness personified. She's my day and she's my light. In fact, it may be hyperbole but I will still claim it time and time again. . . "She is my life."

    I can hear you folks asking 'Is she still with me?' and questions along these lines.

    No! I lost her. . . And yet I haven't lost my love. I don't know why I say such meaningless things. But the reality is that while they may be meaningless to someone, to me they are full of life. Yes, I couldn't have her. But is love about possession? If it is then I don't believe in such a love.

    My love is. . . I will have to borrow from The Bard to describe it:

    "Love is not love
    Which alters when it alteration finds,
    Or bends with the remover to remove:
    O, no! it is an ever-fixed mark,
    That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
    It is the star to every wandering bark,
    Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken."

    And that's all there's to my NoFap Success Story. It is simple. It is easy. And it is hard. And I am proud of it. Yes, I am proud of it all.

    "I have been very happy, very fortunate and very proud... Too fortunate. Too happy for a little while. And now I am unhappy for- for life." I read this somewhere. . . I can't remember where at the moment, but this does a better job of describing what I can't describe.

    All things come to an end, and so must my post. I shall leave Seventh Day Slumber to finish it for me.

    "And I believe in miracles...
    You know I've seen them time and time again...
    Now this one's mine"



    Last edited: Oct 11, 2018

    CELIBACY_GUY Fapstronaut

    Today , the time traveller had unravelled his mystery . Continue with your journey .. many miracles are awaiting for you .I wish you all the best :) really it was mesmerising .
    GSW9, Randox, P-Free and 5 others like this.
  3. Beamer

    Beamer Fapstronaut
    Moderator Assistant

    @MuscularSherlockHolmes :

    Congratulations again my friend, thank you for sharing this! :)
    Stay on the clean path and live your life to the fullest, we're all rooting for you ! :):):)
    Miracles exist indeed sometimes, and most of them we can make happen ourselves, just like you did/ do :) Stay strong !
    Buddhabro, GSW9, Bhara and 7 others like this.
  4. Retro Girl

    Retro Girl Fapstronaut

    My Journal
    You should be proud MSH, wonderful achievement!

    There once was a muscular detective
    Who had a nofap approach most effective
    He fell in love with a girl
    That rocked his world..
    And now he's realised his objective!
  5. M.S.H.

    M.S.H. Fapstronaut

    Thank you guys. The support of this community is a legend in itself. Appreciate you guys checking it out. :)
    Buddhabro, Bhara, Eleanor and 5 others like this.
  6. M.S.H.

    M.S.H. Fapstronaut

    Awe! So sweet of you dear RG! :) I shall treasure it forever :) No words for you as well so have a hint from these smiles :)
    You Rock!
    GSW9, Bhara, Eleanor and 6 others like this.
  7. Mr.Chips

    Mr.Chips Fapstronaut

    That's success, you got your goal mate! You should be proud of yourself and we are proud of you, we shall follow your success!
    A big congratulations for reaching not a streak but to me this can be an end of a long journey and a start for another one of bigger aims that are not about struggling, but enjoying life while progressing more and more. I wish you all the best in coming years with massive success.

    Have a good day man :)
  8. M.S.H.

    M.S.H. Fapstronaut

    Thank you my dear fellow!
  9. _.._

    _.._ Fapstronaut

    Wonderful, Romeo! But let me be your Mercutio and tell you to look around. Putting your existence on pause might seem noble yet it often leads to loss of opportunity.

    If love be rough with you, be rough with love
  10. kelsiermistborn

    kelsiermistborn Fapstronaut

    What a beautiful story man what a beautiful story!
    Reminds me of this
    "But in the desolate hour of midnight
    When an ecstasy of starry silence sleeps
    And my soul hungers for thy voice
    O then
    Love like the magic of wild melodies
    Let thy soul answer mine across the seas."
    - Sarojini Naidu
    GSW9, Mr.Chips, P-Free and 2 others like this.
  11. M.S.H.

    M.S.H. Fapstronaut

    Aye! Maybe someday I will overcome my deficiencies but for now... I can't bear to rebel!
    Mr.Chips, Randox, P-Free and 2 others like this.
  12. M.S.H.

    M.S.H. Fapstronaut

    Thank you :)
    Retro Girl, Mr.Chips, Randox and 2 others like this.
  13. YorkGO

    YorkGO Fapstronaut

    A beautiful post, and provoking, thank you!
    Retro Girl, Mr.Chips, Randox and 2 others like this.
  14. M.S.H.

    M.S.H. Fapstronaut

    Appreciate you taking time out to read it man :)
    Have a nice NoFap day.
    Retro Girl, Mr.Chips, Randox and 2 others like this.
  15. Awesome story man. Sorry to hear that you lost the girl, but at least she gave you something to treasure and helped attribute to your current success. Thanks for sharing :)

    "Tis better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all"
  16. P-Free

    P-Free Fapstronaut Moderator Assistant

    Well done, man! Congratulations on the big 200! Keep going, bro! :)
  17. Randox

    Randox Fapstronaut

    Very nice man , big congratulations :)
  18. almirante

    almirante Fapstronaut

    Continue guerreiro, apenas continue caminhando o fim do túnel está logo .
    P-Free and M.S.H. like this.
  19. Son of shiva

    Son of shiva Fapstronaut

    Congratulations are fighter bro
    P-Free and M.S.H. like this.
  20. M.S.H.

    M.S.H. Fapstronaut

    Obrigado por palavras gentis. :)

Share This Page