This is a major major important point for me. When I fell into addiction I judged myself. My behavior and my morals and sex and what I do. Naturally I stayed away totally from sex and desire until getting caught by it again. I developed a no to the use of sex. I think especially Catholics and many onthe spiritual path have that. I think many do. That never works! This is absolutely the wrong way and creates a bad pattern in the mind that can be cause to sink deeper into the problem of addiction. When I discovered that one reason of my addiction is the no to sex and the strong force not allowing such a rubbish concept it was a major liberation. In my case i know this goes back into past life vows because of spiritual reasons and such things. I don’t say it’s wrong for a monk for a lifetime to live abstinent. But the person must be clear that this is not the ultimate solution to the fact of the sex energy and must clear at some point in his evolution this temporary split and integrate that vital life force in order not to develop a dangerous split as I did. But for here now just that the yes to it erased a huge struggle and energetic fight against something that is the essence of life. This fight is weakening substantially. When I ejaculated I felt I lost. I judged and all that HUGLY WRONG!! It’s not the sex that’s wrong. Not this energy. Not feeling aroused or attracted to a female form. That’s rather super normal and shows a healthy functioning brain. What’s wrong is how it’s used.