So it has almost been three months since discovery. Three months of him abstaining from PMO. He felt the last couple of months were superfluous. Expectations/suspense was mounting for an upcoming getaway. The climate of intimacy was good tonight so we engaged fully in sex for the first time since September. It was very enjoyable up until the end. After conclusion I asked how he was. “I’m fine.” He left the room and upon his return he scoffed a bit and said I looked “creepy” laying in the red lighting. (Prior to engaging I had thrown the first (pink) article of clothing I found over the lamp.) So now I’m deeply unsatisfied, hurt and lonely. Not sure if he’s a moron or trying to be an asshole or both. I conveyed my disappointment/hurt and he offered a couple “I’m sorry” s but the damage is done and my brain is spinning. So much for enjoying afterglow or igniting momentum to encourage more sexuality between us. It’s like he can’t help but sabotage intimacy.