TRIGGER WARNING i developed into something weird. A few month ago I discovered that my wife betrays me. She is sharing nudes with two guys. It shocked me. While hurt I read the whole long chat conversations with dick pics and her quite dirty nudes. I can see that she is the driver in this. She says things and desires she never says to me. Here is the weird thing. It aroused me reading this a lot and since I did not tell her but found it hot that she betrays me and fucks other men. I downloaded the pics and the texts she has with max and Darren and I got off a few times. I know max from the tennis club. He is a nice and quite younger guy. She is 28. He is around 22. She goes lately mich more to the tennis course. I am in state of pain and hurt. But also arousal. I seek their texts and started sharing the pics with a few friends I know find her hot. I enjoy this her not knowing that they know her like that now and also the texts. It’s kind of a revenge and I also send it to a couple colleges at work who know her This too turns me on. I need to somehow change this. Anyone had something similar? How did you get out?