Why?

Self Control! Concentration! As I want to become a musician I'm finding it very difficult to keep my concentration while transcribing a piece of music by ear!

 

I've gone about as far down the rabbit hole as it gets in terms of where PMO addiction can take you (read my first journal entry to learn a bit more). I was constantly under the control of my compulsions and I lost out on many opportunities to make the most out of my life. PMO made me feel extremely isolated and destroyed my self-esteem to the point where I wouldn't ever even try talking to anyone and I felt that I was always on my own. I was very defeated mentally. I used PMO as an escape from reality and it became something that consumed so much of my time and thoughts that it made me a very depressed and anxious person.

Eventually I realized that I was not the person who I wanted to be. I realized that porn was the cause as a result of my counseling, watching the "Great Porn Experiment" on Ted and reading the anecdotes on YBOP. These resources 100% described what I was going through and when I found this website through Google last month I made a conscious choice to quit PMO.

I no longer want to be the low self-esteem guy who can't even work up the courage to talk to people, who is constantly plagued by anxiety and who finds no joy in simply living life. As cheesy as it sounds I want to be the best version of my self that I can reasonably attain and in order to do that PMO needs to go.

My goals:
* More confidence
* Higher self-esteem
* Better relationships
* Less dependency on drugs/alcohol
* Inner peace

 

Because masturbation is degenerate behaviour. And I also want to free my will from bodily automatism as much as possible.

 

Don't lose the things I gained:
*WILLPOWER
*Appreciation of the little joys in life (from zero to hudnred)
*Much more energy
*Ability to hold strong conversation, eye contact
*Feeling you don't hide anything from anyone

Not faping is a natural state and now I feel like I have been on sedatives for my whole life since like 12...

 

Whatever, I disagree that masturbation is a degenerate behavior. Like everything else, as long as its done in moderation it's normal and healthy. The problems start only when it takes over your life and contributes to unhealthy living and negative brain effects. For us fapstronauts, it's a bane because we let it get out of control, but masturbation is intrinsically an okay thing.

 

Should of thought of this earlier but I want to be less depressed and more confidant. I want to be able to say no and mean no. Put more of my time and energy into art, mostly painting. I want to look in the mirror and be proud of my accomplishment and not frown in disappointment. Finally when the time comes I want to have the guts to speak to that girl!

Ya its a long shot.

 

*Peace of mind
*Confidence
*Being Fit
*Stop procrastination
*Talk to more girls
*Skate more often

That's what I really want.

 

I'm doing this because pmo isn't necessary to my life, and it in fact makes my life alot worse. It has never done me any good nor will it. And my life is infinitely better without it! I'm doing it because I want to be the best version of myself I can be, contrived as that statement seems, its something I think every man should follow, and taking out this huge nasty habit is a big step towards starting to live a more virtuous life.

 

It is unhealthy. If you argue that masturbation is healthy then you must argue that not masturbating is unhealthy which is an absurd position. Indeed, sexual celibacy may be unhealthy in the long run as in the course of several years, although there is no good evidence to suggest it.

Masturbation is unealthy, porn is unhealthy, they are destructive and therefore contribute to degeneracy.
The only healthy form of sexual expression is mating or pseudo-mating.