Why is it so effing hard to quit porn??

Its like I dont have control over myself. I'm just doing it.
Every time I decide to start its like my body responds "No, ain't doing that!"
I know I can have self control, thats when I'm doing 30 plus days streaks but now for the past month I haven't even been able to go one week.

What is wrong with me?

I've watched movies about porn and its truly made me disgust porn. Good news is, I can start searching for porn and open up several windows of it but I'm not even lasting 4 seconds before I close all porn windows. Somehow these movies about porn has made me look at porn in a way so now I can't even watch a short clip of it. Which is good.

Now I dont fap to porn at all but to different fetishes that has nothing to do with sex or porn but it triggers me to fap. This is a problem. And I'm not sure how to win over this problem. I know I got the control. I just dont know where to find that control right now.

Anyone have any opinion or can relate please let me know.
Thank you.

 

I had, fixed, and acquired this problem again. The way I fixed it was just not watching porn at all but I kept fapping, of course fapping every day 1 - 3 times gets boring and your back to watching porn, but not for long like you said a few seconds, and its vanilla but quickly you fall back into your old ways and its weird fetish stuff and its 7 tabs of it and you watch it for hours. So I guess what I'm saying is I didn't really fix it. I'm sorry I'm rambling a bit and kind of losing focus. You said you look at porn but don't fap to it but rather something unrelated to sex, well by fapping your making it sexual so its just as bad as porn in my book. It finally got warm where I live and I say that because my longest streaks were always in warm weather, why? because when ever I get the urge I run and it wipes me out I have no energy to do anything after I run and if I start to get use to it then run father, physically wear yourself out. And running is best, I lift and yes I'm tired for a bit afterwards but it doesn't remove the urge, running does, so try running, sorry about this cluster fuck of text I kind of just kept writing what I was thinking as I was reading your post

 

The reason you feel like you don't have control over yourself is, I think, because that is the nature of habit. Understand that it is your thinking that drives you to PMO, from this initial urge or thought to watch P, your body instantly responds with habitual movements and actions, towards MO. The more you think about it the harder it is to break free.

It all has to do with Neural pathways in the brain, and how these pathways move us into action. Look up neuroplasticity if you are interested.

The good news is that we can change our habits, by changing the way we 'think'. Mindfulness /consciousness is a very important element to changing habit. Why ?Because it brings the the old way of thinking to our awareness, and when we realise we are starting to think of PMO, we can make a choice, I usually get up and go do something else, or get outside. Without being conscious of the thoughts, they have much a much greater influence to make us PMO.

Which is why Mindfulness /meditation practise can really help.

It really is important to 'catch' ourselves think towards PMO. Give it go.

Your body may be saying ' I ain't doing that' because of the chemical rewards you get from PMO. hence the term PMO Addiction. When you PMO your brain gets inundated with feel good chemicals, and we all like the feel good chemicals don't we. The illusion is that PMO makes you feel good, until afterwards of course. But it is only an Illusion. There is nothing real there. I place PMO addiction up with Alchohol and other drugs because it is very addictive and the addiction can last for decades. It can also help to find an activity/hobby that's better for you that gives you the feel good chemicals. Ie jogging, socialising etc.


CK

 

I think the resistance to the thing is creating more of the thing. It's like being in a room with a giant elephant and someone saying don't look at the elephant....see how hard that mindset is?! BUT if you are focused on something else it's easier for you to not focus on the elephant. So my advice is to stop resisting and just start focusing on something else in your life.