Why I'm never giving up

This is my first post on here, so I decided to write about why I'm never going to give up. I hope self improvement is the write place to write this! Anyway, so, I was 11 when I started to watch porn and jack off. And last year is when it got at its worse. I found about chat sites and I got addicted to it real quick. Everyday I would have porn on one monitor and I'd be talking with some random girl. My porn addiction became even worse when the chat site aspect was added in. I would spend several hours on porn and these chat sites. It was honestly horrible. I felt awful afterwards but I didn't care about my self enough to stop. I also found about NoFap about a year ago as well, but I was so addicted to jerkin the snake that I was like whatever. Soon my summer ended and school was comin up. I was whatever about it as always, so the first day of school came around. And it was the best day of my life, reason being, I saw the girl of my dreams. She was adorable with angelic skin and incredible eyes. Ever since I saw her that first day I immediately made it my mission to get to know her. So my school would have A days and B days, and it would alternate between my A day classes and B day classes. A days were the days I got to see her. So every time I got to see her, I talked to her and got to know her a lil better each time I saw her! We hit it off right away, she is funny as hell and way smarter then me, but she was the first girl I actually enjoyed talking to. She has my sense of humor, understands me as a person, and we can have deep conversations. I could go on and on about her but this post would end up being a book. Anyway we started dating August 25th of 2018. (school started early as hell August 13th) At first I had no damn clue what a relationship really was, I mean she is my first girlfriend I've ever had. So of course I still had my porn addiction and chat site addiction, as the months went on, I tried to quit without telling her but I kept losing every time. One day I decided (a few months ago actually) to come out to her about my problems. She was incredibly supportive and not even mad about it, she was incredibly understanding for my problem. So thats when I extremely serious about it, of course I didn't quit right away (the urge was unimaginably strong). But it was the first major step to quitting, so as school ended summer came around. Thats when my addiction kicked into full gear, it got even worse then it did last year, no matter how hard I tried to quit it kicked my ass even harder. This was a month ago, and it was at its absolute worst. I would watch porn and be on those chat sites from 8pm to 5am. I felt so awful about myself, I told her every time I failed. At first she didn't seem that sad or bummed about it, she was still very supportive. But she slowly got more and more hurt each time I failed, at first she thought it was just porn because I felt so horrible about the chat site thing too, but then I eventually told her about it and she didn't seem too sad about it. But the next day she broke down crying in front of me about it. I felt so bad for her and I just boiled up hatred for porn and that chat site bullshit. From then on I decided that I need to do everything I can to quit this torture, doing it on my own isn't enough, so thats when I came back to NoFap. I read a lot of posts on here, me and my girlfriend both read all the posts on here. I felt so inspired and I felt like I can actually beat this thing. Also the reason I was on those chat sites in the first place is because I got bored of just watching porn and it was a way to distract my horny mind. I'm a totally different person when I'm watching porn and jacking it. I swear I don't even feel the same. But now my drive to quit hasn't ever been as powerful as it is now. I'm not going to lose to this, I'm going to win this battle with myself and I'm going to help as many people as I can on this site. No one ever deserves to be consumed by porn like it consumed me. Porn is truly evil, I'm not giving up no matter how strong this urge is. I'm doing it for her, if I fail ever again then I'm not worthy of her at all. I'm going to win guys, this is a great community full of great people. I'll help as many as I can to release themselves from the chains of porn. If you read all of this thank you for taking time out of your day to read this. Never give up, no matter what!