Where to now?

Oh goodness I am so sorry. This is so difficult and I understand your feelings. Have you discussed this with him? If so how did he respond? Is he willing to get help and change?
If he is motivated to get healthy and commit to your marriage, he will need counselling, you will, and together you will. That would be ideal. He obviously needs accpuntability software installed etc etc.
If he minimizes what he has done and gets angry with you, then you need to decide if that is how you want to live the rest of your life.

 

I totally understand. 2 kids and 14 years married here. Feel free to PM me for support.

 

I'm so sorry. Did he tell you about it or did you discover it? Did you confront him? What was his response?

 

I completely understand-very similar to my situation as well. I always thought I knew him and now I look on so much of our history and it was a lie.

 

It's tough, for sure. I found it numerous times throughout our marriage as well but never saw it as an addiction. He hid it well. I just figured they were little blood of boredom here and there. It wasn't until D-Day a year ago that I realized there was a lot more to it, and even then I still didn't see an addiction. Then came the trickle down discovery over weeks and months. That's when we both had to face the fact that this was a real addiction. And I will always feel like a fool that never put it all together.

Most of my memories are colored differently now, both the good ones and the bad. I'm trying to work through this.