Just a Christian Woman in her 20s struggeling with daddy issues, depression and porn addiction. MY STORY I'm 23 years old and I live in Germany. I grew up in a unstable family house because my parents were fighting all the time. My father drank alcohol a lot and did not really show us his love (because he could not). My mother is a Christian and raised us religious. As a teenage girl I have been really insecure about myself and talking to a boy was a challenge for me. With 14 years I started to read a lot of books and to eat a lot (emotional eating). With 18 years the depression hit me hard because I could not deal with my insecurities. I watched porn the first time when an ad page for sex cams popped up. I felt terrible afterwards but I continued watching porn. I had to get psychological help because of my depression but I never talked about my problems with my sexuality. In May 2016 I gave Jesus my life and in June 2017 I got baptized. Praise the Lord for that. I still struggle with my mental health but when I'm weak God is strong. At the moment I study at an university here in Germany and live in my own apartment during the working week which is not always easy for me because I have a lot of time to live out my bad habits. I don't really have friends because opening myself up has become more difficult due to depressed episodes and bad experiences with people. MY BAD HABITS emotional eating (which is also an eating disorder called "binge eating") overthinking spending too much time on the internet letting myself go and neglecting my stuff for university MY TRIGGERS frustration because of university tasks (I'm kinda of a perfectionist when it comes to that stuff) or because of myself often leads to watching youtube videos / spending time on my laptop which leads to pmo usage feeling of loneliness (which is common when I'm in my apartment) often leads to seeking attention from strangers on the internet which can lead to cs which can lead to pmo usage visual imagery / long eye contact with an attractive person WHAT HELPS ME TO FOCUS Spending time with God daily which includes reading the bible, praying and attending church services A good day structure Regular meals Working out Feeling like I'm being loved THINGS I HAVE DONE OR DO TO STOP PMO I'm on a telegram group where I occasionally write with people that are also on nofap I talked to my sisters about my pmo problem; felt like one of the biggest steps in my life I installed qustodio (porn filter) on all my devices I have a nofap journal where I collect my thoughts about purity, nofap and finding a partner ABOUT YOU I really appreciate you for commenting on my threat but please be brief because I always feel guilty about not being able to take the same amount of time to answer your comment. My plan is to write here as regular as possible. In the last time I haven't really been committed to that. I'm on day 1 today.