What's up crackas ? I'm new here

Hi everyone,

I'm Gagan. I've been addicted to porn since I was 12, holy moly I'm 20 now.The longest I was able to go without fapping was 9 days. And I still remember the boosting confidence I had and high energy level in those 9 days.
PMO hindered my growth as a person, as I can't find any person or thing interesting enough to commit myself to it.As a result, I can't able to talk to girls (Things getting srs here), grades are becoming lower and couldn't do things I'm passionate about. (Programming and lifting)
I'm glad I found and joined the community. I look forward to becoming the best version of myself with your support. I also being as supportive as I can possibly be for all my fellow fapstronauts.
All the best to you all!

 

I'm at day 3, Little to no Urges yet. I'm realising more power in my lower body and damn about today's shoulder workout, I killed it, bruv.
NoFap definitively gives you extra push you need.
Let's see in upcoming days, as my college starts from tomorrow.
Oh btw my current strategy is...
1.Focus on your meals. Give your mind healthy fuel it needs.(I take 5-6 meals in a day)
2. Find something interesting on internet if you do lot of web surfing in free time like me. For me, I now research about new technologies (processors, gaming, graphic cards and stuff like that)
3. Don't watch TV shows or movies which have more of hot scenes which can ignite you up.

 

I'm at day 5, getting serious urges. Crippling loneliness is surrounding me. My brain is only thinking about it. Very difficult to control myself.
Not been able to divert my mind anywhere else, hope this passes away.
Not going to bend the knees anyway, Will fight till victory.

 

Day 13.. Everything is normal !
I'm the same person but now I can cope with nervousness, shyness and loneliness better.
I can recover faster whenever I'm demotivated.

 

Day 15 I'm more sensitive as I get a a boner by even seeing a above average hottie
It's getting difficult now.. but I'll not stop till I get to day 90

 

Days are getting more harder now.. I'm doubting myself. There is no girl in my life and sometimes I have feeling that I never can have a girl in my life. I'm thinking about getting a prostitute but damn it would empty my pockets.
My life is pretty good (bunch of good friends,I know what I have to do in my life, Getting into shape) but the only thing is I can't have been able to get sex and that's fucking my mind up.
- Day 16

 

Day 18, It's normal again.
I've talked to a very good friend which is also a chick magnet, He's going to help me to talk to some girls. I'm very excited at the same time anxious , Let's see how this goes.

 

Same day as above but What's happening with me. When I see girls in public, all I stare is their butts and very much tempted to fuck them. Also I've become somewhat shameless as I keep eye contact till girls looks away.
I'm afraid that I may rape someone, lol

 

Day 20
I relapsed three times today.
Although, I am back on track again now with different strategy.
20 days weren't bad for the first try ,I never made that far ever since I started PMO.
I will continue from day 20 to go upto day 90 and will not relapse again.

 

Okay.. Yeah !
Day 1 - 9:00 am
This is more difficult now,idk how i did it before.
I just can't stop. Now this is day 1,I have to get past the first week now.stop watching tv, use mobile just for work. Don't fantasise about women see them just as they are.
Finally starting it and I will do it.

 

I did something shit and now I'm regretting it. All just because I couldn't control my urges. I spent 100$ on dating sites and others and it was not my money, I just used my mom's netbanking account to pay for those sites and she doesn't even know it yet.
This is getting worse and it's high time that I get my shit together.
Won't let it take control of my life..
Starting from today I swore not to PMO.

 

At the end of Day 2, Everything's good, but still feel down when I think I haven't been in relationship for 5 years.
Usually I know this guilty feeling leads me to PMO .. But now I'll try to change it to motivate me to do something productive to be a better person.

 

I watched P today but not MO , And I only watched because I come across a new P site,I was just curious. Nothing else..
Btw Today I learned a whole lot of random things
But did nothing productive, from tomorrow I'll start making progress academically.

 

Got to day 5 then relapsed.
Anyways starting today at day 1.