I'm in 31st day. Yesterday we had gone to the theatre with my family. Then we came home. Everybody slept. I couldn't sleep until 2 am. I decided to wake up and to do something. I went to kitchen for looking for some snacks and opened to TV watch Rocky movie. By the way today I had some courses which I had to go. I woke up 8 am and I felt like s*it. With very disgusting suicidal thoughts. By the way grounching at me " What we onna do with you, come and do whatever you have to. I didn't go anywhere because I couldn't do anything. I always depressed and I don't know how can I overcome this situation. I feel very lonely and I graduated from high school. How can I go the university with this depressed thoughts there are 130 days for the exam. I feel unprepare. Always feel shame, depressed, suicidal, constant fatigue, bored.