What if you see it from a different point of view? How I see addiction.

Contrary to popular belief: you are absolutely free. You are what you decide to be. You and only you chose. If you consider yourself to be an addict, then you’re an addict. If you decide to try to quit, then you will only try to quit. It has nothing to do with power of will. It's a fact. If you’re doing NoFap, you’re doing NoFap, if you’re quitting an addiction to PMO, you’re quitting an addiction to PMO, it’s not the same. If you decide to "beat a personal best", if you think in terms of streaks and goals, then you're doing NoFap, not quitting an addiction. Think of the term, quitting. It means, leave behind. Change. Change is super scary. It requires to not be yourself anymore. Or, to see it differently, to go back to your original self. The one that you were before PMO filled the voids with void.


Maybe the reason you relapse is because you’re thinking, “I'm an addict. I AM an addict, that have / want to quit its addiction.” What does an addict does? He does the nature of its addiction – here PMO. But what if someone is not an addict anymore? Then it doesn't makes sense for him to do the nature of his addiction – as he is not addicted anymore. Your past never should be forget, it should be forgiven.


I've been an addict for two years and a half. I reckon, it's not much, but it was intense. I remember being eaten alive by guilt, I remember cutting myself, I remember writing insults to myself with my own blood on the side of my bed, I remember panic, I remember the smell of hospital, I remember my father's rifle, I remember how the thought of being ADDICTED was literally killing me.

I have not forget. I will never forget, because it's part of who I am right now, and without having lived this I would not be the one I am today.

However, I have forgave myself. I once watched porn? It's ok, I don't do it anymore. I can tell I'm not an addict anymore, and it's the reason I haven't and will not relapse. Why hate myself for something I did, or something I used to do? I can't relapse, because "relapse" includes that there's an addiction. I will never relapse, I'm not addicted. I'm not an addict. I have no desire to do what I used to do when I was an addict.

When I registered here, I was an addict, I remember writing "if I last one month, I'll buy Girls Against God". Well I didn't bought Girls Against God, instead I quit.


You are what you chose to be. You become what you decide you'll become. You're not your addiction, you're not your problems. You're not your orgasms, you're not the pleasure you get, you're not the number on your counter. I know it sounds like Tyler. "What I am, what I chose to be, what I'm becoming, what I decide I’ll be. How many kids I’ll have, how many times I'll fuck, how many songs I’ll listen too, how many trees I’ll hug, how many times I'll puke, how many times I’ll watch sun rise and how many times I’ll die." You are what makes you happy, hat makes you sad, what you chose to do, what you do, what you fail to do. Is being an addict one of them?

I don't wish you the best. I know you'll have it if you want to.

PLEASE PEOPLE. REMEMBER: fuck methods, fuck what I think. Everyone's unique and there's as much methods as people on Earth. I'm presenting you the way I see it, because I think it's safe to say that I'm successful for now, but if what you do is making you happy... Then by all means go on.