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Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by ThunderWings386, Aug 21, 2019.

  1. ThunderWings386

    ThunderWings386 Fapstronaut

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    So after 7 days of no fapping or porn I watched porn and fapped but it didn't go down the way it used to. You see, I've read these stories about how some people discovered that porn was never needed, it was the masturbation they craved and well I wanted to see how it would go for me. Yes, I voluntarily seeked out porn (just one clip) and what I found was I had no erection but I still fapped and...ya know, but the thing is, I didn't feel anything. Usually I'd feel relief, and an uncontrollable desire to return but no, the porn felt foreign to me, like it didn't feel the same way it used to. It felt...uninteresting. The excitement, the unbreakable(and somewhat terrifying) focus on the porn, the pleasure or relief, it was all gone. What's even weirder is that last week, I "tripped," I masturbated just for the sake of masturbating and the weird thing is, what I felt then is what I should have felt when I watched that porn vid. I don't know if this is normal, maybe this is a screw up, or something is broken within me. Maybe it's dopamine I'm craving or sexual pleasure even. Please leave your thoughts down below and don't beat around the bush, if I screwed up than tell me I screwed up.
     
  2. Ogikubo

    Ogikubo Fapstronaut

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    It sounds pretty normal to me, at least based on my own experience. No porn orgasms are much more intense for me than when using porn.
    Part of the rush in PMO is the searching and scrolling for the right video. We know they are pretty much all the same, but we do get a kind of high from that process. You left that out. And you've had a bit of a mindshift, so it makes sense that your porn session left you feeling it wasn't worth it.
    You did not screw up, but you probably agree that you need to quit porn and masturbation altogether. I am craving a masturbation session a lot these days, but the last few times I did, it left me feeling really unfulfilled for a couple of days.
    I want to get through the rest of 2019 without a single session of masturbation - with porn or without. I feel you would like to do the same.
     
  3. ThunderWings386

    ThunderWings386 Fapstronaut

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    Yes, I too would like to make the rest of 2019 without it , I need to quit porn and masturbation all together. I definitely think today's discovery was an eye opener. Until now I always thought that porn was guaranteed masturbation but now, now I see that is not the case. I know I'm no where near out of the woods but I think I'm making my way out, and I'm interested to see what lies ahead after this unexpected revelation.
     
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    userSCP Fapstronaut

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    Yeah, when "tabbed" browser came out, this got out of control for me. Sometimes, I would spend more time creating 30+ tabs of videos I wanted to watch, but wouldn't make it past the 2 or 3. Fuck man, Porn is such a cheap shot to men, we are so fucking susceptible to the Coolidge effect.
     
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