Well, I thought I might have some NoFap attractiveness but I guess not :(

Tonight was the first time I've been out in a long time. The NoFap has definitely made me want to get out there. It's like, I'm going to have wood when I sleep at night and when I wake up, I got to find someone to use it on or I'm going to explode.

At work I had been sensing my coworker liking me. I asked her if she had plans this weekend and she invited me out to this club tonight. Well I get there, find her, make some chit chat about work, I seem to be doing all the work keeping a conversation going.

She introduces me to a coworker who I've never met or seen at work before. A few minutes later when that person was squeezing by me to get somewhere, I smile and say hello again and she looks at me like she never met me and doesnt say a word and keeps moving on. I'm like damn is it my appearance?

Meanwhile, coworker #1 was talking to me about where she's from when this huge dude backs up into her by accident, he turns around to apologize, they shook hands and they never stopped talking from then on. After about 10 minutes of them talking and me just standing there, I felt so discarded I just walked away and went home.

I guess I need to go longer with NoFap before the magic glow kicks in?

Or, maybe, it's because it's just not my scene. It was a stuffy dressed up high heels crowd, DJ was playing old school hip hop (SUCKS). I need modern smart dance music, something with an actual vibe. And I need an artsy chick, not someone that looks like they sell diamonds at the mall. I just wanted to get the fuck back home.

 

I know you're right, because ive had lucky nights before, rare as they are. Thanks for the reminder. I cant fall into that trap thinking im going to score my first night out in months, or every night.

What depresses me, is when you do a good job of conversation with a woman, you're entertaining, but you can see she's trying not to laugh at your jokes because she doesn't want you to think you have a chance. And then some dude who is bigger than you comes along, and is not as funny and not as entertaining but she laughs at his jokes and ends up going home with him. This exact scene has happened to me at least 10 times in my life so far. It's so emasculating and defeating. It's like women immediately disqualify you and already decide there's no chance simply because you're not beefcake from going to the gym. I think women have been brainwashed by TV and movies etc into thinking they need a huge guy to have good sex. But I know for a fact they don't need a huge guy to have good sex. Because the last girl I dated was a big booty "PAWG", and I was the first skinny guy she's been with; she had always been with bigger guys before, and she said she was confused because i was the best sex she'd ever had and it didn't make sense to her that it would come from a skinny guy like me. She flat out said she always went for bigger guys thinking that's what she needed.

I'm veering off into something that should be it's own topic but I've read articles about how toy action figuresd over the years have gotten bigger and bigger, like the 1960's superman and batman compared to today, it's ridiculous. We're all being brainwashed. This shit is NOT what's important. Society needs to get back to caring about personality more, not muscles.

 

Wow Love369 you're totally right. I completely forgot my usual mission when going out is to just give love to everyone, to be friendly and just socialize in general, not just to get laid. I think because I'm only day 10, the extreme horniness has hijacked my brain a bit.

 

Every comment from everyone has been spot on, all things i need to remember.